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2010-07-09T14:00:00.001+08:00

Producers = Make Money

Consumers = Spend Money

Prosumers = Make Money while they Spend

2010-06-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

Thought that this is a place to share stuff but what did i get after telling them stuff? They call me a quitter. Thinking that this is a place where brothers n sister can share things n wont be look down on.

Yes, i always tell myself that i dont wanna care what people think of me. or even say about me. But somehow, there is something which will strike me once i hear all this comment.

I believe that there is this God. I believe in what He says. But i dont believe in the body. Sometimes they hurt.

How to share when they do this?

Even when the leaders are like that.

NOW its only God n me.

Hello...

2009-12-08T16:07:00.002+08:00

Wow... So long never blog already and why am i here? haha. Today is the 9th of Dec 2009. Came back from cambodia not too long ago and the feeling that i am having now is bad... I wonder why am i feeling this way. Each time i come back from cambodia, the feeling is like that. Didn't want to come back. Didn't want to leave my friends. Didn't want to say Good Bye.

This trip has been rather different from my previous one. Maybe its just a different kind of leading. Different calling. Different people in the team. Different Leaders.

I admit that through this trip, it wasn't easy for me at all. Many things i disagree about. Many mountains to climb. Many giants to Fight. But i am glad that i actually went for this trip. Not only to meet up with friends that i have not seen for awhile but also to know this new relationship with the people i went with. To know them better although i see them every week in church. To see what kind of people they are and to accept them for who they are.

Coming back to singapore was tough. Leaving friends behind and not knowing when you are going to see them again.
Indeed, i miss them alot. The bond that we had. The closness we had. The fun we went through.
Each time i start thinking of them, tears start coming out. Feelings come n take control.

Its really tough. You never know will you ever see them again or not.
This is the second time i am there. Was looking out for those that i seen before but some isn't there anymore. Its sad to hear some of their stories. One is in hospital cos of HIV. many was taken back to their parents. I mean going back to the parents or family is a happy thing but i was wondering what are they doing now?
I start thinking weather is it better to be in the home or is it better to go back to the family.

Right now, i am praying that God will bring me back to Cambodia again.

2009-04-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

its been a good time hanging out with friends this past few weeks. spending alot as well but it was all good. starting work really soon. and im looking forward to it but in a way oso sad. sad because i know i wont have so much time to hang out anymore. lesser time to go to church. lesser time for frens.
lesser time for relationship. something that im afraid of is my walk with God will be affected when i wont be able to go to church. but deep down,i know God as put me in this place and im sure he will provide me and guild me. ohh well. :) thats all.

sad to say!!! DISAPPOINTED

2009-03-19T16:44:00.003+08:00

Im disappointed in the leadership of many people.

They have lost my respect.

They take friends for granted.

You call yourselves Christians?

You call yourselves a Church?

You call yourselves an image of who God is?

Then what would non-believers think of God when they see us?

Are we different from those who do not know God?]

What is the difference?

If non-belivers see who God is through the things we do, then they must have know that this is a lousy God.

Right now, im sure that many non-belivers behave better then we christians behave.

They dont take friends for granted.

And I respect them for that.

Unbelivable

Back again

2009-03-10T10:46:00.002+08:00

Well, i have not been around here for awhile. Now at home not doing anything and decided to maybe update abit.

Its been quite a journey for me this past few years. Going into shatec and after 2 yrs graduated. But after that, what do i do? Its been a struggle deciding my future on my own. Not letting God take control. ok here is how it actually happen....

After gradutaing from Shatec, i was worried of what im going to do after that, Cos this will be what i'll be doing in a long term. hopefully till i retire. So was having my long break after graduating but soon, i was introduce to this vietnamese resturant to work in. so i agreed to go for the interview. Waiting for the days of my interview, alot of things went through my mind. Things like, i have not had enough break yet. Do i want to work in a vietnamese resturant? and stuff like that. Afew days had past and the date of the interview came, i went for the interview and everything went smoothly. I was asked to go back again to do some paper works before i start work. And they will call me to tell me when i have to go back. During the time before going back, questions start appearing in my head again but this time i told myself that i dont mind doing it at all and my head was at ease.
Nearing to the date of going back, i recived a call from my dad. He asked me if i would like to take over his business which he had started but wanted to stop. After hearing from him, i was so excited over it but also dont know if i should take it. Cos running a business isn't easy at all and i just graduted and not knowing much about business at all. So i told him that to let me think about it first. and he did.

So i was running out time for my big decision. During that period i was really struglling. I was still waiting for the call to tell me when i should go back but i know it was near. One day, i met up with my mentor to talk about this over lunch n coffee. She told me so many things which kept me thinking. And letting me realise that i have forgotten that i have a God who is just waiting for me to ask.
During that talk with my mentor, i recived a phone call and to my disbelief, its from the vietnamese resturant asking me to go back in afews days time. After getting that call, i became to panic and became desperate for an answer. For a decision that i need to make soon. I went back home, and i went on my knees crying out to God that i needed His help. That i cant do it on my own anymore cos i really just cant. I am weak without Him. Decided to leave it all to Him and i felt much better after that.

Just one day before going back to the resturant, i was praying and God told me not to take up the resturant. but after hearing it, i was happy that now i know what to do but also afraid cos how am i going to tell them that i wont be going anymore in just a short time. And it was about 12 plus in the night and the only time i can call them is on the day itself. But knowing that i have to do it, i leave it to God for strength. The next day, woke up early in the morning and took my phone out.sitting on the sofa in the living room, staring at the phone on the table. I took the phone and dial the no but didn't dare press the call button. So in desprate measures, i went to God again ask him to give me the peace that i need the strength to do his will and He did. after the prayer, i went up on my feet, took the phone and called the person that interviewed me. explanned to him everything that has happen and about the offer my dad had giving me n stuff. and was expecting him to give me a big scolding but he didn't. he totally understand and all he did was say "OK". I put down the phone and gave myself a big sigh of relieve and talk to myself saying, "its so easy".

Through this incident, it taught me that God can make things easy if you have faith and do what he says. And let him be in control of your life. So never ever make such decisions on your own. God is there waiting for us to asked. =)

2008-04-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

Hello... here to have alittle update.

Anyway, i came across this poem which actually encourage me years already. Ever since i was in secondary 2, this poem actually bless me alot n help me in many ways.

I Refuse To Be Discouraged

I refuse to be discouraged,
To be sad, or to cry;
I refuse to be downhearted,
and here's the reason why...

I have a God who's mighty,
Who's sovereign and supreme;
I have a God who loves me,
and I am on His team.

He is all wise and powerful,
Jesus is His name;
Though everything is changeable,
My God remains the same.

My God knows all that's happening;
Beginning to the end,
His presence is my comfort,
He is my dearest friend.

When sickness comes to weaken me,
To bring my head down low,
I call upon my mighty God;
Into His arms I go.

When circumstances threaten
to rob me from my peace;
He draws me close unto His breast,
Where all my strivings cease.

And when my heart melts within me,
and weakness takes control;
He gathers me into His arms,
He soothes my heart and soul.

The great "I AM" is with me,
My life is in His hand,
The "Son of the Lord" is my hope,
It's in His strength I stand.

I refuse to be defeated,
My eyes are on my God;
He has promised to be with me,
as through this life I trod.

I'm looking past all my circumstances,
To Heaven's throne above;
My prayers have reached
the heart of God,
I'm resting in His love.

I give God thanks in everything,
My eyes are on His face;
The battle's His, the victory is mine;
He'll help me win the race.

Hope that this poem bless those who are always being discourage and aways facing giants in their life but donno what to do.

2008-03-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

hello... i am back but i donno if it last again. ever since my last update on this blog, so many things had happen. Friends, relationship, working n school. so many things.

Lets just start of with friends. like i said before, friends seriously plays a big part in my life cos i donno what i'll do withput them. i use to hang out with this group of frens in church but somehow we dont hang out as much as before already. felt really far from them. perhaps its the busyness of their work n sch. i too sometimes find myself so busy at work n in school that i cant hang out with them. but as time pass, i felt that my frenship with them is falling apart. i use to be so happy when i get to see them but now, it felt different. couldn't explain how that feeling is but its just different.
but although all this had happen, i actually came closer to this 2 guys. eduard n julian. it became so close that it felt like i really have 2 more brothers. although they r younger then me, i felt comfortable in sharing with them probs that is bothering me. i guess thats what brothers r for. listen n share. hanging out with them is fun. getting to know so many more younger ones n even the parents. being able to be the bigger brother. it felt really good to actually being able to take care n have fun with the younger ones. n being look up to. i guess some frens just come n go but true frens stay behind with you.

ok enough about friends. now its about relationships.
relationship with my parents is ok. normal. about dad, i dont really get to see him. even i do, it felt different. it felt like i wasn't close to him anymore. he would pop my my house once in awhile to have dinner but each time he do, i couldn't say more. all i could say was "hello". i do not know how to relate to my dad anymore. but hoping for a better relationship with him.
then about my relationship with abi, its doing alright but at times,we quarrel n it hurts alot for both of us i guess. i felt that we r over sensitive to one other. we do not give space to one another. n infact sometimes we control one another. like for example, sometimes i do felt angry when she hang out with her frens. esp the guys from her track. but am i going to not allow her to hang out with her frens? i realise that relationship is about trust. what is the point of going into a relationship when we dont trust one another? when we r scared that something will happen. so i've make a choice n say that i will NEVER let this kind of feelings control me anymore. cos i trust her n i know that she will do the right thing. but of cos, i would want her to trust me too. even though i hang out alot with the girls in church, it never once cross my mind to like them more then frens. i treated them all as sisters like how i treat eduard n julian as brothers. i really hope that she will understand the situation that we r in. n fully trust me in the things i do.

but im glad after so many quarrels that we have gone through, we r still together going strong. each time things happen, we grow from it not run away from it. i love her alot.

thats all for relationships. now work n sch.
school is normal lah. cant wait to not go to sch anymore.
Work have been bumpy. having alot of troubles n even on the verge of getting fired. but still wanna thank God that i still have a last chance to change n i really wanna change. attitute towards supervisors not really good cos of my temper. i normally talk back if i thinks its right or wrong so i normally get it from them. this time, im going to be patient with them n do what i am ask to do.

that should be all for now.... going to sleep. i'll bounce

2007-09-03T11:48:00.000+08:00

hello... just update alittle.
i was suppose to play drums for jyc yesterday but i totally forgotton abt it. until when im in the bus to church. by that time there wasn't enough time to rush to church. but thank God, krystal was in church and she took over me. jyc was fun. worship was great. lead by nicole. it was fellowship. so my group decided to head down to macs to grab some bites. on our way there. we saw many other groups. behind and infront of us. and realised that almost the whole jycers were going to macs.

After macs, headed back to church for yc. ian was the speaker. and ian was leading worship. respect him man. how he manage his time and get things done. so busy and yet had time for playing some games like WOW. i wonder how he do that man. haha.

after service, we headed to kopitiam to eat. then on my way back to church, i bump into justin and sean. they were heading to parklane. i guess i dont have to explain why we go there for. haha. i followed them and saw jermemy yap and nathan waiting for us. we went to play dota then later timmy koh join us. its fun. after so long of not playing that game and finally i get to play it again. we played like 2 games and we left. some went for dinner some went back to church.

went to church and some of them were playing games. after that went for dinner. then headed home.

eat so much man.

2007-08-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

hello.... here is some things we do when we are bored on msn. hehehe

well, today work was alright. after work head down to church. had dinner then we go for netball. and netball sure is tiring. after that headed home. now so tired. hehehe. anyway, thats all for today. tmr cell. ciao

ohh ya... btw, here is the pic we took after the 21km AHM. Outside church. byebye

2007-08-27T10:30:00.000+08:00

hello... dont really know wat to update though. hehe. anyway, today was suppose to have school but my teacher was sick so lesson cancel. no sch today. but going to meet some of my frens at cityhall mrt to do project.

yesterday went for a marathon. super tiring man. have not run ever since i was in army and suddenly run a 21km marathon. haha. now my legs are aching. hope to get well soon.

here are some pictures.

Me studying... ummm how come like im not looking at my paper? ehehe

Big eyes and super small eyes.

Here are some of the fireworks picture we took.

haha... hoping to take this fireworks but end up taking it before it explodes.

Well, thats all for now. hehe.... going to rest my legs. super ache. haha. take care. bye

2007-08-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i didn't have school cos it was a day to study for my test next week. i seriously donno wat to study man. the hints that my teacher gave doesn't even seem like its in the book to study... how to study leh.
anyway, went to meet abi to study at jurong entertainment centre. went to kfc and stone there. didn't study cos really donno wat to study. so just stone there, tok non sense and disturb abi. donno if she study enough or not cos i keep disturbing her. hehe.

This is one of the picture we took together:

Isn't this cute? Both of us when we are young.

Abit blur ah... but both of us acting cool. hehe.

Hiyo.... this girl ah... forever open the mouth wan...

2007-08-14T12:41:00.000+08:00

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the
next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN
NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU
SAY ?
Lips of an Angel

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Leave Out All The Rest

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Adonai

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
From God Above

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
You Are Good

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Sooner or Later

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
God of Wonders

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Keep Holding On

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Love You Forever

10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Never Let You Go

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
It's Not Over

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Don't Look Back In Anger

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Angels or Devils

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Come On Over Baby (YEAH!!!)

15. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
At the Cross

16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Revolution

17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
The Time Has Come (hahaha)

18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Miracle Maker

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
The Stand

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
One Love

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Snow White Queen

2007-08-14T10:21:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i last updated it. maybe i was lazy. maybe i had nothing to say. i tried typing a few words in it but ended up deleteing it again.

I have not been hanging out with the gang that often anymore and im missing it. i oso donno why its like that. maybe all of us had started sch again and all had lesser time. maybe im not included in it anymore. sometimes i find it hard to even relate to them. seeing them being so close to one another and yet im so far away from them. seeing them with cliqes and it makes me feel left out being with them. sometimes heard that they went out but i jus didn't know anything about it. felt so left out. or maybe its just me lah. i shouldn't be typing all this here.

School have been alright. being lazy to go to sch sometimes but i got to drag myself out of bed and go to school on time. i think going to school now is a waste of time. maybe learning about menu planning might help but going to sch so early on a tues morning to cook a 30 mins dish and later go for lunch is a waste of time. and next lesson is at 2.30pm. what are we suppose to do for 5 hrs before the next lesson start? we cant go home cos its too far. we cant sit down and eat for 5 hrs...
but by saying all this, we cant do anything abt it. Just go through it loh.

Work... tiring but good. i just change kitchen and now im doing more cooking. get to taste alot of food. and saving alot of money on lunch. last week, i burn my lips while tasting this beef goulash. it was boiling at that point of time but i thought blowing it would be good enough. guess i was wrong. now abit of my lips is black. hehe. burn. people in that kitchen is friendly too. better then ones in the cold kitchen.

i wanna watch alot of movies. but first its rush hour 3. guess i will be watching it alone or hopefully can find someone to watch with.

i went through my emails and found this story and it touch me alot. here it is......

Every Sunday afternoon, after the morning service at the church, the Pastor and his eleven year old son would go out into their town and hand out Gospel Tracts.

This particular Sunday afternoon, as it came time for the Pastor and his son to walk the streets with their tracts, it was very cold outside, as well as pouring down rain. The boy bundled up in his warmest and driest
clothes and said, "OK, Dad, I'm ready."

His Pastor dad asked, "Ready for what?"

"Dad, it's time we gather our tracts together and go out." Dad responds, "Son, it's very cold outside and it's pouring down rain." The boy gives his dad a surprised look, asking, "But Dad, aren't people still going to Hell, even though it's raining?"

Dad answers, "Son, I am not going out in this weather." Despondently, the boy asks, "Dad, can I go? Please?"
His father hesitated for a moment then said, "Son, you can go. Here are the tracts, be careful son." "Thanks Dad!" And with that, he was off and out into the rain.

This eleven year old boy walked the streets of the town going door to door and handing to everybody he met in the street a Gospel Tract. After two hours of walking in the rain, he was soaking, bone-chilled wet and down to his VERY LAST TRACT. He stopped at a corner and looked for someone to hand a tract to, but the streets were totally deserted.

Then he turned toward the first home he saw and started up the sidewalk to the front door and rang the door bell. He rang the bell, but nobody answered. He rang it again and again, but still no one answered. He waited but still no answer. Finally, this eleven year old trooper turned to leave, but something stopped him. Again, he turned to the door and rang the bell and knocked loudly on the door with his fist. He waited, something holding him there on the front porch! He rang again and this time the door slowly opened.

Standing in the doorway was a very sad-looking elderly lady. She softly asked, "What can I do for you, son?" With radiant eyes and a smile that lit up her world, this little boy said, "Ma'am, I'm sorry if I disturbed you, but I just want to tell you that *JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU* and I came to give you my very last Gospel Tract which will tell you all about JESUS and His great LOVE." With that, he handed her his last tract and turned to leave. She called to him as he departed. "Thank you, son! And God Bless You!"

Well, the following Sunday morning in church Pastor Dad was in the pulpit. As the service began, he asked, "Does anybody have any testimony or want to say anything?"

Slowly, in the back row of the church, an elderly lady stood to her feet. As she began to speak, a look of glorious radiance came from her face, "No one in this church knows me. I've never been here before. You see,
before last Sunday I was not a Christian. My husband passed on some time ago, leaving me totally alone in this world. Last Sunday, being a particularly cold and rainy day, it was even more so in my heart that I came to the end of the line where I no longer had any hope or will to live. So I took a rope and a chair and ascended the stairway into the attic of my home. I fastened the rope securely to a rafter in the roof, then stood on the chair and fastened the other end of the rope around my neck. Standing on that chair, so lonely and brokenhearted I was about to leap off, when suddenly the loud ringing of my doorbell downstairs startled me. I thought, "I'll wait a minute, and whoever it is will go away." I waited and waited, but the ringing doorbell seemed to get louder and more insistent, and then the person ringing also started knocking loudly. I thought to myself again, "Who on earth could this be? Nobody ever rings my bell or comes to see me."

I loosened the rope from my neck and started for the front door, all the while the bell rang louder and louder.
When I opened the door and looked I could hardly believe my eyes, for there on my front porch was the most radiant and angelic little boy I had ever seen in my life. His SMILE, oh, I could never describe it to you! The words that came from his mouth caused my heart that had long been dead, TO LEAP TO LIFE as he exclaimed with a cherub-like voice, "Ma'am, I just came to tell you that JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU." Then he gave me this Gospel Tract that I now hold in my hand. As the little angel disappeared back out into the cold and rain, I closed my door and read slowly every word of this Gospel Tract. Then I went up to my attic to get my rope and chair. I wouldn't be needing them any more. You see---I am now a Happy Child of the KING. Since the address of your church was on the back of this Gospel Tract, I have come here to personally say THANK YOU to God's little angel who came just in the nick of time and by so doing, spared my soul from an eternity in hell."

There was not a dry eye in the church. And as shouts of praise and honor to THE KING resounded off the very rafters of the building, Pastor Dad descended from the pulpit to the front pew where the little angel was seated. He took his son in his arms and sobbed uncontrollably. Probably no church has had a more glorious moment, and probably this universe has never seen a Papa that was more filled with love & honor for his son.

2007-07-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

hello... what can I update about? well, today I had work. did alot of cutting and stuff. stand for about 6 hours straight then headed for lunch. nothing much happen today. after work, came home and rest.

tomorrow will be waking up alittle earlier cause i'm going tot the airport to send james and joette off. they will be going back to australia for their studies. and i think they will be coming back end of the year. will miss them alot.

I manage to apply for my leave this saturday cause its captains ball day with other churches. I know that this day is about having fun and spending time with your fellow brothers and sisters in christ from other churches. but i realised that it had become a very competiting thing. many people just want to have a good team and win. so everyone became very competitive. even me myself think of that too. think of winning and stuff. but i know its wrong. so i want to go out there this saturday and have fun. i heard will be playing against BPMC. looking forward to that. looking forward to catch up with friends. even grace methodist. and so many other more churches.
Lord, would you come and be with us even as we play those matches. come and remind us that its about family and relationship. and not about winning or losing. teach us to love.

Tomorrow will be jamming once again with the band. i want to go there and enjoy myself playing drums and worshiping Him. and not having the fear or thought that i'm not good enough.

As you all can tell, i'm trying to type out the full word. trying not to type short form anymore. haha.

I miss you alot. things might not turn out the way it is in your life right now but never ever give up. the things he say might be hurtful but most importantly is that you take it the right way. proof him wrong. dont ever give up. Do it for me at least. i love you.

2007-07-14T17:27:00.001+08:00

hello all... as you can see, my comp is Finally back to normal. but after being able to use the computer, i realised that i dont really have anything to do on the comp le. maybe last time i would play lots of games on it but now.... i dont even wanna play games. maybe thats a good thing in a way. but maybe it takes some time before i start playing games again. or maybe because i dont hav much time to use the comp oso. have to sleep early cos got work the next dae. after work got plans so come home late. haha...

anyway, work hav been rather tiring for me. normally i would end work at 4 or maybe abit earlier but this past few days, i hav been going home ard 6 plus. erm... im not complaining n stuff but its just make me really tired everydae. haha. but its also fun at work cos i get to learn alot of stuff. n get to eat alot of many different kind of food. todae is sat n finally i got my off dae tmr. haha

the new sem has started. the time table is kind of funny. haha. its like mon i start work at 12pm (yeah) but ends work at 7pm (boo). so i oso donno wat to feel. haha. im happy to start late but sad to end late. ohh well... i guess i cant always hav it my way.

Church... it hav been fun n my walk with God is rather good. have been doing my qt recently n stuff. great stuff. going for jamming with the band. fun fun fun. now as part of the leaders in teens cell, more resposibility n more commitment. but nothin to be afraid about cos we hav a God that is big enough to handle every fear or problems we have. but now i need to pray about somethings. jyc n teens meeting clashes with one another. which one does God wans me to go? Work hav been ending late for me and how am i be able to go for meetings n stuff?
God speaks...........

thats all for now.... take care y'all. jarnei.

2007-05-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO...

Some of my frens said that spiderman 3 wasn't as nice. some of them sae it was jus alright. so i ask them how come the show wasn't nice. they said that spiderman is suppose to be a mysterious super hero. a superhero that come n save the dae n then off he goes. a superhero that ppl in the show wont get to see him more then 3 sec except mary jane n the bad guys. but in this show, he can jus swing into a parade n kiss a girl jus like that. i didn't get it at first but after i watch it, i got wat they meant.

Yesterdae, 33 of us went to watch spiderman 3 at The Catay. some of us met earlier to hav our dinner then of we go to the cinema. we couldn't get tix for 33 of us to sit together so we were like occuping 4 rows. hahaha... in the cinema, we started eating our tib bits n soon the movie started. to me, it was really great. love the venom. he is so cool man. after the movie, we headed to PS cos some of them hav nt had their dinner. i had desert over there. after that some of them went home n the guys went to hav war at the LAN shop. haha. we play battlefield 2. its been awhile since i last played game with the guys n i hav never played with ian n joel wong before. haha. but after playing for awhile, i started having headache. then after gaming, off to home we go.

Last week, i started my work at SATS. i started on the 3rd of may. the first 2 daes, it was so boring man. we had lectures n hours n hours. it was abt HACCP. its like going back to sch to study the same thing again but this is worse. haha. then on the second dae, we had a tour ard the building. the building is like so big that we hav walk ard 4km ard the building. up n down 4 stories. finally, it was sat n we get to work. all of us were send to diff kitchen to to do diff things. i was in the cold kitchen doing dishing. it was fun. time pass really quickly. haha...

todae went to sch n cook. we cook gado gado, satay n indonesia fried rice. yum yum...
after sch went to meet abi to hav dinner.
now im home haha.

tmr work again.... hope it is gd.... n hope the dae pass fast again. after work, going to church to jam thenhav jyc meeting.

thurs dinner...

2007-05-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

hello... yesterdae was labour dae n we went to play badminton with the adults. while playing, i somehow hit my knee on the ground while trying to hit the shuttlecock. after that, it became painful but i didn't care so continued playing, played until ard 2, we went for our lunch at this chicken rice place. its so delicious man.... eat 2 plates of rice n lots of chicken, lots of beansprout, lots of oyster veg but only one dumpling. hehe.
after lunch, headed home to bath n change then sis fetch me to orchard. meet abi... then go somewhere to sit. haha. cos knee hurts n i cannot walk. after sitting down, went to gelera to eat waffles then sit again then go home. haha...

todae, woke up early n went to see the doctor abt my leg. the doctor sae that my knee ligament tear. heng ah.... i thought something might happen to my bone but gd thing its only ligament. then went to look for knee guard n headed home. n here i am now writing this post.

i realised one thing is that i would rather hav a sprain ankle then to hav my knee ligament tear. i could walk better with a sprain ankle. haha.

by right, i should be starting work todae but im so thankful that they called me n ask me to come to work tmr instead. i was like thinking if i were to work todae, how am i gonna work when i cant walk properly. haha. but tmr will be working n i pray that it gets better by then. hearing from some of my frens who had start work oready, some of them stand up too long until their leg gt swollen. but i noe that i can take it wan.

God, u hav put me to this place n now let me glorify You.

gt jyc meeting later.... donno if i'll be able to go.

2007-04-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

hello.... a quick update....

andy is finally out after a 2 weeks confinement in pulau tekong. n his first book out got long weekend oready. thanks to labour dae. but sadly, next week he will be having his field camp. i noe its gonna be tough for him but its gonna be an experience. its gonna be something different.

yesterdae, i had to make choices between going out with my sec sch frens or to go out with the gang. so i decided to go out with my sch frens. met them n started walking ard. went to play 3 games of snooker. then went taka to walk walk. called matt they all n decided to go meet them for awhile. so i went to lucky plaza to meet them. was glad to see andy. started walking ard n headed to far east plaza. went to eat shilin chicken n then went to shop. while shopping, i was thinking if weather to stick with this grp or go meet my sch frens again. after awhile, i decided to hang out with the gang. i jus love hanging out with them. but felt bad psing them. after shopping ard, we went to take a bus to church n met benw, tany, xiang n daniel. headed down to stiff chilli. n it was pack so we headed to this coffee shop to hav our dinner. this was the first time i had deer meat. but it tasted like pork to me. n suddenly remembered that my chef once told me that deer is quite expensive. n cos deer taste abit like pork, some places will use pork as deer. so yesterdae i tried the deer meat might nt be a deer but instead a pork. haha. after dinner, headed down to stiff chilli n we had a place to sit. n had gelato. yum yum.... after that headed home.

todae, went to jyc. i got to pray for this guy called joshua. he is a cute little boy. only sec 1.on the outside, he seems really quiet but deep down, i noe he has alot to sae. n when i wanted to pray for him, he sae mid year exam. haha... so thats wat he is going through now. so prayed for him.
next was yc.... matt rawlins spoke. erm... didn't really understand wat he said.
after that, headed to macs with abi n had lunch there. then headed back to church for capts ball.... the weather todae was crazy man. it was really hot compared to the past few daes which rain so much. but im glad the the weather was like that thenit rains n we couldn't play. played under hot sun for awhile until its time for dinner. went to bath then headed to chin chin for dinner. ate chicken n pork chop rice. with soup n alittle kangkong. was so tired during dinner n was like stoning le. after that headed home.

tmr, will be sch again. but its gonna be fun cos one chef sae tmr he will be doing some cooking n it will be hanging out abit. chit chat abit. eat abit n hav fun. chill out. so will be looking forward to that.

tues, labour dae. i think i will be playing badminton with the uncles n of cos the youth. its been awhile since i played n this time its with the uncle. n i noe that they r nt ppl to mess with on the court. they r gd. but its fellowship so i would wanna go n play. n donno if we still watching spiderman 3 or nt. i really wanna watch but donno the rest. hahah...

will be starting work really soon on wed n i really hope that everything will go smoothly. n im sure it will be. God had provided me this place to work oready n im sure that it will go fine. pray for me guys...

i guess thats abt it... n i guess its nt that a quick update oso rite? haha.. take care all.

2007-04-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

hello hello... lets see wat to update abt. i guess i hav alot to update but i shall try to make it short. hehe. anyway, this month hav been quite relax for me. not much of sch n stuff.

Abt sch, i will be starting work on the 2nd of May which is this coming wed. After labour day. finally i get to go to work. for the past one week, seeing ppl going to work n some of us still hav nt started work worries me alot. at least for me, i hav found a place to work but im more worried for my other frens who hav nt found a place to work yet. i really hope that they could find a job soon. Thank God for providing me with this job at SATS. everything goes so perfectly. i will be able to come to church on sun cos its my off dae. n the timing is from 8pm - 4pm which means i'll be able to go for cell. i really didn't expect it to go so well but one thing i noe is that if u really trust God n do the things He tells u to, u hav nothin to be worried abt. infact, everything hav been taken care of. jus hav to listen n obey. haha.

well, during this month of april, i hav spend quite alot n im making some holes in my pocket oready. haha. cos this month, we had quite a no of ppl having their birthdays. we celebrated andys birthday before he left to army. afew daes later was tany's then it was benwu n to its sharon's birthdae. haha. though it had cost me quite alot, but im happy to celebrate with them.

wow... time really flies quite fast ah.... i remb sending andy off n now, he is coming out. n in abt 4 more daes, its the month of May. next thing, its christmas. haha. sometimes i wonder wat did i do this past few months. sometimes i remb alot but sometimes i dont. but i noe that this pass month, is great. getting to hang out with the "thursday gang". getting to go shopping n buy presents for ppl. getting to celebrate ppl birthdays. getting to go out with abi. getting alot of rest at home cos gt no sch except mon n tues. its been great.

todae, i stayed home the whole dae. watching bleach n heroes. decided to go n cut hair cos will be starting work pretty soon. was intending to do far east to cut hair but was kind of lazy so i went to the opposite of my hse to cut. ohh man.... i donno wat to sae abt this hair cut man. i look like a nerd. i look like a small boy. haha... the guy cut my hair so short. but come to think of it, i dont really get bothered over how i look or wat hair cut i get. i guess hair will grow back so nothin to be upset abt. hahaha. after cutting hair, continue watching bleach. haha... quite waste of time ah. thats wat i do when im at home. i jus watch tv, go online, sleep. nothin more i could do when im at home. thats y i nv like staying home alone. haha.

OHHH NOOOO!!!.... IPPT is coming real soon. howhowhow??? looking at myself now, i dont think i can even pass this ippt. i serously need to start my training le. one month before it starts. need discipline. i oso wonder how come last time i can get gold for ippt n now i dont even think i can pass. haha... come on lionel.... train train train...

yesterdae, had jyc meeting. i felt that this meeting was........different......... i donno. it felt like the leaders was arguing over things. i felt that i had alot to sae but i jus couldn't open my mouth. i felt that yesterdae meeting was a waste of time. we didn't get to anywhere. i donno....

tmr, cell.
sat, soccer n hopefully go out n hang out.
sun, service, capts ball.
mon, at sch relax.
tues, labour dae, hopefully can watch spiderman 3.
wed, start work.

is this consider a short or long post???

2007-04-18T09:24:00.000+08:00

umm... i donno wat to update leh. hahaha... lets see................... well, mon n tues i went back to sch to learn to cook asian cuisin. its much tougher then western but more fun. the chef that taught us to cook asian food is a really funny guy. but oso strick. which is gd. ahaha... tues, we cooked malay archar, chicken curry n nasi Kunyit (yellow glutinous rice). wah... its tough man... cos like we hav to pound shallots, garlic, ginger, etc into paste. normally ppl use blander to do it but we hav to use this thing to do it. i donno wats the name for it but its like a rock bowl n a rock pounder. haha. n i jus realised that asian food is really unhealthy but it taste gd. the amount of oil we use is crazy. like for the curry, we can use like 40ml of oil. hahaha... n for the archar, abt 20ml. hahah... n after the hard work of cooking, we tasted the food n its nice. hehe. but when i look up n started to look at ppl ard me, i notice that all their uniform r all dirty. haha like mine. dirty from all the pounding n curry splashing onto the unifor. i wonder how is the stain gonna go off. haha.

after cooking, we didn't hav time for lunch so we packet the food that we cook n headed to our next class. its theory. haha. when we went there, the projector didn't work so chef hav to jus read it out n many many were falling aslp. n many were eating in class. eating the curry n stuff. n the whole classroom smelled with curry.

after class, went to meet abi for ben n jerry's. cos yesterdae was free cone dae in ben n jerry's. but when we reach there, we look up n saw that the queue was crazy. i wont ever queue for an ice-cream that long. saw some ppl coming down with the ice-cream cone in their hands. its so small i tell u. its like if i put the whole cone in my mouth, i could like finish it in 2 bites. so we headed out n hav our dinner. haha which is my chicken curry n rice. haha.

todae, its the start of our attachment. but to many others, they wont be starting anytime soon cos they hav nt found their place to work yet. all the best guys. for me, i've found a place to work le but jus that i dont think i will be starting to work this week cos they need to hav the medical results first. which i think will be ard a week to precess. n i hope that they can call us to work by next week. cos the later u work, the later u graduate.

umm... lets see wat i'll cook next week........ erm................ pineapple pajri, beef rendang =) n tomato rice. yum yum.... got appetizer, rice n dish. one whole meal.... just that no drinks. haha...

thats all folks.... take care. jarnei.

2007-04-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

todae, went to send andy off. he is gonna be a man now. going into army is the next step for him. which means. more trails n more testing. but im sure he will go through with ease cos God is with him.
went to whitesand at pastir ris todae to meet andy. his family was there. tok abit n stuff then came sam. continue toking n came the rest. we had lunch together n we tok quite abit. n looking at andy's face, i totally now how he feels. the feeling of being sian. of being lonely n stuff. it reminded me of myself when i was abt to enter army. even daes before, i remb myself squarting outside bugis swensen feeling so down. feeling so sad. but time flies really quick n im oready out of it. hope that that will be wat andy is gonna go through too. he will get use to it in army n enjoy his life there n make more frens. jiayou bro. this r the pics we took.
Andy n me.

Just love touching his head. hehe

Candid shot on us but tany n me nv fail to pose for it. hehe.

Group picture before Andy leave.

after sending him off, i went to changi airport then took a bus to SATS for my interview. reach there early n saw one of my fren oready waiting there. soon it was 3pm n they called us to go in n wait for the chef to come. nt long later he came in. i didn't expect him to be an ang mo. haha... he tok to us abit n introduce himself to us. after that, another guy came in n he is incharge of the admin side. his name is jason. we tok abit n stuff n soon 4 of my other frens came in. they were LATE!!!.... n of cos, the chef n jason wasn't happy abt it. they interview us n soon jason became kind of angry n started toking in a loud manner. all of us jus stood quiet. after toking, the chef n jason went out to discuss n left us in the room. at that moment, i was really afraid. donno wat to expect. then jason came in the took 3 of the resume n called out the name. "alice, afeera n ken... sori to inform u that u all failed the intervie." i was sad for them cos how r they gonna find a work now? but oso happy that i got in. i was prepared to nt get that job oready cos i wanted to sae that i cant work on sun cos i got church but to God's grace, He didn't even allowed me to tell jason about it. jason straight away sae that our off is on sun. which means, mon n tues, i'll be going to shatec to study. then wed, thurs, fri n sat, will be working n sun is OFF!!!!.... yeah!!!!... when i heard that, i was overjoy... n the timing of working is 8am - 4pm. which means i can go for cell oso. really thank God man.... after interview, went to meet may at the airport. eat BK then headed home.

Tmr will be going for my medical check up. hope it goes smoothly.

Thank u God for providing. Thank u God for guilding.

2007-04-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Todae i emailed my resume to SATS in the morning. In the afternoon i recived a call from Mr. Jason Fok n he told me to come down for an interview this coming thurs at 3pm SHARP!!!.... i was very happy at that moment. haha... i need prayer man... pray that this interview will go smoothly n i'll get in. even if i didn't get in, that i trust that He will give me other options.

In the afternoon, went to far east to look for the rest. talk abit then walk abit then bought some stuff then headed to marina square. walk ard n started looking at diff places where we could eat n finally we found a place to it. at Hans. we sitted there for awhile n started thinking how to surprise andy. soon more ppl came n we continue the thinking. n finally we though of something which i hav nv done it before... surprise him in the toilet. haha. so this is wat happen... matt went to meet andy. when andy arrived, matt msg us n the guys went to hide in the guys toilet. the were 2 cubical in the toilet which all of us were in. soon after we went into the cubical, we heard matt n andy voice. matt gave us a signal n we started making funny noises n started banging the walls. then we charge out. haha... so wierd. but funny. then later he continue his peeing n we went out then awaiting him was a 2nd surprise. the girls were standing at one corner with a cake. when he came out, we started singing happy birthdae song to him. alot of ppl who walk by us must think that we r crazy.... celebrating birthdae outside the toilet. but like i said before... for our brother or sister, we will do anything. hehe. after that, we back to Hans n started ordering our dinner. we were all so hungry by then. i ordered black pepper steak which came with a set. ate it all up n felt hungry still. we chit chat n eat until everyone has eaten n we took out the cake. eat again then started taking fotos n putting cream on one anothers face. after dinner, we started walking out of Hans n andy wanna drink. so we went to Gloria Jeans for coffee n tea. after that, headed home.

andy will be leaving to army this coming thurs at 2.30pm. pray for him. i would wanna send him off but i couldn't cos i hav an interview at 3pm. All the best bro.

2007-04-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

Am i that tempre mental? Do i get angry or bad mood so easily? haiz.....

2007-04-02T14:14:00.000+08:00

i got this from sam's blog so i went to tried it out n this is wat i got.
The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You like standing out and making sure that people know your mind.
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haha... anyway, yesterdae we had jyc n yc... during jyc, it was great. worship was great n small grp oso. i went to join tany's grp n we tok abt obedience love. wat is obedience? Obedience = Love that Trust.
think abt it.... how to be obedient to our parents, teachers n of cos God? there r so much to learn from this.

then came yc, uncle matt spoke then after that its time for capts ball. i played catcher n donno izzit me or is being catcher that hard. maybe its jus me. haha. i really stink at playing catcher man. so many nice ball came to me but i jus couldn't catch. ohh well, but soon, i played back as running again. played until ard 8.20 then rush to the toilet to bath cos i was suppose to meet my family for dinner at 8.30 n forgotton the time. so i rush n cut queue to bath. hehe. then headed off to this curry resturant to hav my dinner. i didn't wanna go at first cos i wanna go dinner with the yc ppl but i've realised that i hav nt gone dinner with them for quite some time n i should go. like wat i learn, obedience. sometimes i find that im a really bad son cos i disobey them time after time n nt even spend time with them. sometimes they ask me out for dinner n i'll jus give an excuse so that to nt hav dinner with them but instead having it with my frens. i need to change. i need to be obedient. so after dinner, we went to one cosy place to hav a drink. after that, headed home.

todae, i went to sch cos im having exam. its catering science. i went to class jus in time for the paper. sit down n get ready my pens n stuff then waited for the paper to come. gt my paper, n took afew glance of it n most of it was MCQ so in my head, i was thinking that its gonna be really easy n stuff. the clock was ticking n ticking and once it reaches 10am, its time to start the paper. i flip open the first page n started reading the qus. it was the true/false qus n the first qus was oready so hard. but i tried. after awhile, in my head, i was like so sad n so afraid. i didn't expect it to be so difficult. MCQs' was oso hard. some of it i couldn't ans n so i decided to jus put down a ans n hope that its the correct one. soon, the nightmare begins. its the fill in the blank kind of qus. n i jus couldn't do alot of it so i jus put in some ans to that qus n some i left it blank. i was doing it half-way n i started seeing ppl leaving the room. they hav done finish that paper n i started to panic. im afraid that i might nt be able to finish it own time so i started to read through really quickly n headed it up. i took a look at the clock on the wall n guess wat. i did it half an hour before it ends. still gt so much time. hahaha... but when i went out of the room, i was thinking that its over... die liao. fail. but im nt gonna let this bother me anymore.

God, u come n take control. my results is in Your hands.

tmr, will be having another exam called the principle of cooking. i think its gonna be easy but im gonna study for it man. wait scarly like todae like that. think its easy but in the end, so hard. haha.

Good fridae might be going to sentosa.... nt comfirm.. long time nv go there le haha.

Jarnei.

2007-04-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

The results of your analysis say:

You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously. When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much.
You have a peaceful mind, viewing the world with calm and serenity. To you, life is not about struggle and strife but about existence and co-existence.
You like following the rules and being objective. You are precise and meticulous, and like to evaluate decisions before making them.
You have a sunny, cheerful disposition.
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studied so much yesterdae. studied with abi in church like from 2pm to ard 7pm. haha... kk... i didn't study all the way but i did at least cover up some of my exams qus which will most likely come out on mon, tues n wed. hehehe. still gt some more to go. hope i can study again.

i guess thats all. haha... update again soon i hope. hehe. jarnei.

2007-03-31T11:01:00.000+08:00

todae woke up early, get change n left to hse. walking towards the mrt, shawn called n sae that match hav been cancelled due to the feild is nt in a gd condition todae. so in the end, no soccer for us n if shawn would hav called me a min later, i would hav boarded the train. haha... so in a way, im glad that he called me jus in time.

well, yesterdae i was home the whole dae n ard 5, i headed down to tany's place. sharon was there n of cos sean was there. watch one episode of naruto n one episode of bleach n its time to leave the hse. headed down to bugis to meet the rest n walk to shaw tower for our dinner. pork chop rice... haha... this is the 2nd time some of us ate in this week but it still taste as gd. after dinner, walk pass this ice-cream shop n some pop in n bought. the ice-cream there is gd. love their ram n raisin n chocolate. after that, headed down to church for combined prayer meeting. we prayed for the church like the worship hall, chior room, the cafe, carpark, n many many more. we oso prayed for the different congregation n prayed for the sick. i think that it was a really great time of prayer yesterdae. after that, headed home.

Once again, i was thinking abt stuff again. but this time, it wasn't abt sad sad emo emo kind of things but instead, i was thinking abt friendships. like how some who once was close ended up being so far from one another. like how they use to hang out so often, after going to their different ways, they change. how people change so much. but thinking alot of it n realising that this is where they grow n learn more. we should really step away from our comfort zone, go to another place, mix with diff people n make that ur comfort area again. thats where we learn so much n grow from that. imaging u were to stick with ur own grp of frens ur whole life. u wouldn't even be expose to the world out there. the many ppl that need ur blessings. the ppl where life can be touch by u. n wat happens if u jus stick to ur own grp n nv mix ard? u will tend to depend on that person more. n when one dae, ur fren jus need to leave u, even for a short period of time, u will find it so hard cos all u do is to depend on that one person or grp. n once u depend so much on that one, Where does God stand in ur life?

We need to put Him first. we need to look up to Him n nt own ourselves, nt own our frens. even in relationship. a complete relationship would be God, u n me. it wont be complete without God in it.

To those who hav been feeling really far away from God, do come back.

This is some of the things u might be thinking like:
How to come back? it feels wierd.
Whats the point of coming back? it makes no difference.
Everytime i thought of coming back, but on that dae, i jus dont feel like it.
Etc
Etc
Etc

It is gd oready that u all r thinking of coming back but donno how. its is gd that u r thinking abt all this. now, its up to u guys to take that first step in coming back. that first step is always the hardest but once u take that step, u will feel better. u need to force urself no matter wat to come back. Cos thats wat we need. Come back guys....

2007-03-29T21:24:00.001+08:00

The internet connection is giving me headaches man. took me so long to even come to this page to update. haha... anyway, i hav been kind of lazy to update. sometimes oso donno wat to update. hehe.

We celebrater Miaofeng's Birthday. This is some of the pics i cope from other's blog. hehe.

Does it look like a cake? Make by Yingnuo, Vic, Sam n Yingnuo's maid. hehe. Yum Yum.

Surprise!!! The look at miaofeng's face was priceless.

Wat surprise her??? ummm????

Tany, Me, Matt, Andy n Sean.... wat a crazy idea n everybody was looking at us. but for our sister, we will do anything. haha. on the paper bag was written " Hi Miaofeng Happy 12th Birthday haha". hahaha...

Prayed for Her.

Matt n Andy

Sean n Matt

Sam n Me

Sam, me n tany in the movie Stomp The Yard

Sean jus cant wait to eat his yummy food.

Lovely couple with their lovely ribs.

Sam, mf, vic, crystal, nuo n rite behind Andy

Cast n Crew of a great movie
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todae went to play pool n snooker with benw n matt. after that, went to far east to walk ard. wanted to buy a pair of shoes but too bad it doesn't hav my size. ohh well... will get it some other time.

exams r coming. next week mon, tues n wed will be my major theory exams n i seriously need to study for it. kind of worried cos i donno alot. studied yesterdae at abi's hse but still think that i hav nt studied enough. will be studying again this sat after soccer. i need prayer. pls pray for me ya. thx alot.

waiting for my comp.......

i guess that abt all... take care. jarnei.

2007-03-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

yesterdae, i went to sch in the afternoon ard 2.30pm to present my project. it was alright. but donno if they like it. ohh well.... after that, i left n went to PS to meet some of them cos we hav movie later at 7.40pm. we walk ard for awhile, went into yamaha to look ard. then headed to kopitiam to had our dinner. soon after that, everybody came. n after dinner, went to buy some drinks n snacks at carrfour then headed to cathay. quite a no of us went for the movie.
Girls: nuo, mf, vic, sam, emily, may, kel
Guys: Brian, tany, jiahao, matt, andy, sean, benw, lionel
15 of us went to watch "Stomp The Yard". for me, i think the movie was alright. but if to were compare with "You've Got Serve", i think "You've Got Serve" is better. Stomp the yard is more of slapping n stomping while You've got serve is more on Breakdance n hiphop. but i still enjoy it alot. after the movie, tok abit n do some actions from the movie like the pyton n the wolf. haha... then headed back home.

Hope u guys enjoy it as much as i enjoyed it. hope to get more of this in future.

Thank You all for making this happen. =)

JARNEI!!!

2007-03-20T09:53:00.000+08:00

some updates of my week.... well, for the last exam, i think i did nt bad. but im oso nt sure how i'll get. but i dont really wanna think abt it cos im gonna let God to take control.

Sch had been aright for me... more slack oready cos the ending of the semester is coming. my practical is over n left the exams. so i will hav some daes off if its on a practical day. about the theorys, most of it is done so jus got to wait for the exams to come n for me to study. Im still kind of lazy to look for my attachment. i need strength man. i need to find one. but i donno where. i need to pray about it.

one thing in my mind right now is that when im having my attachment, i wont be able to go to church that often n im afraid to fall deeper n deeper. even right now, i noe that my walk with God isn't as gd n i noe that i hav nt put in the effort to go back to Him. Sometimes i blame on God for letting me be so far away but the truth is its nt His fault but my own. He has given me the freedom to make choices but i hav been making the wrong choice. walking the wrong path. i need to go back to God. i need to climb back up. i need to noe how to do that. i hate it when i always think of all this n i dont do anything about it. i hate to climb up n fall again n each time i fall, i fall even harder. currently, im serving jyc n as a leader, i dont wan them to follow my footstep. to do wat i do. God teach me how.

Sundae, yc was great man. worship was powerful n word was awsome. uncle sam was our speaker n he spoke abt man to raise up. to be resposible n be "the man". i was quite suprise at myself when i didn't really feel tired during that sermon. n i wasn't even playing games on my fone. but instead, i was jus listening to wat uncle sam was saeing. he started of with a short worship n in that worship, i felt that God is in the house. I felt the peace. n when he start speaking, i jus cant take my eyes of him. dont even wan to go toilet. haha. i went to sit alone that a corner n listen n the things he said really impacted me alot. n its true that GUYS should raise up n do wat is right. Thank u uncle sam. n his magic trick is cool man. i wanna learn but i shall nt. cos the fun part is to be amaze. it wont be that exciting if u oready noe that trick isn't it. haha. so yup.

yesterdae, we had a surprise for queen... n she was surprise abt 3 times in a row. hahaha... im glad that she is happy. todae is her actual birthdae so..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to U. age doesn't really matter oready but her heart is still as young as how God created it to be. Soft n Caring. Thank you queen jie jie for everything.

about surprising her, matt,benw,andy,brian n me went to pool fusion to play. played abt 1 hr n was kind of tired so everybody headed back home.

todae, 3 of my cell leaders had departed to a place where God had called them to go. Jing, dawn n reggie. im sure gonna miss all of them but im gonna miss reggie the most. she is my mentor. the one i turn to if i need anything. the one i can share with. the one that pulls me back to the right path. Thank u mentor.

after sending them back, i was to go to sch but i was late n so i went home instead. will be watching movie tonite with some of the yc ppl n im looking forward to that show. hope its gd.

tmr i wont be having sch cos thursdae im having my big big exam le. so tmr im gonna rest n do abit of my work. haha. so fast n its the big exam. hope to do well in this. i think this exam is abt the same as the previous one but jus slightly different. nt sure how it is like yet so ya... got to be prepared for it.

maybe going for a swim later.... see how lah. haha... jarnei.

2007-03-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

ohhh man.,,, tmr im having a big exam. its a practical exam n its scary. its different from the others. the exam is called the mystery busket. haha. well, we r suppose to draw lots. n see which item we hav to cook. its a 3 cost meal. main dish, soup n salad. i really hope i choose the rite one tmr.

umm... i cant think of anything to update le...

erm... this sun im having jamming.

will be starting my attachment really soon. trying to do my resume n finding the right hotel to go to. abit lazy though but i noe i cant cos if nt i wont be able to get any hotel to work.

missing the hang out ppl... this week like many ppl seems to be busy with other things.

Good Mood = Good Food
Bad Mood = Bad Food
thats so true. when im having a gd mood, the food i cook taste better. when im having bad mood, the food i cook taste like i donno how to explain. haha...

pity my partner when im having bad mood. haha... when im having bad mood, he hav to do most of the things. haha...

starting to try to be positive n do the right thing. trying to nt think abt the bad things that ruin my dae. ruin my time with my frens. =).

2007-03-11T21:24:00.000+08:00

A little update on wat i did this past few daes.

well, this week in sch had been reallyh tiring n kind of bad. i was having alot to do in the kitchen n somehow ppl make me get really fed up. i noe that i shouldn't be this way. as a christian, wat would they think of me. wat would they think of christian when they see wat kind of attitute i've gt. having so much in my mind. abt sch, attachment, frens, relationships. in my mind, there r oready so much to think abt. n due to the heat n stress i hav in the kitchen makes it worse. one thing i realised that when doing cooking, u cant hav this kind of moods cos it really spoil ur dae n it spoil the dishes u make. hope this wont happen again.

during sch on thurs, i recived a sms that shock me for quite some time. the sms was send by emily n queenie. at first, i thought it was a joke but after thinking for awhile, emily dont really sms me so it couldn't be a joke at all n y would anyone play such joke. so after realising all this, i really gt nothin to sae but was thinking alot. i guess my frens in sch realised that i was really stone on that dae. sori to my partner n to my frens that i was so stone n blur on that dae.

To auntie May, i noe i hav wasted the chance to tell her this n i would nv hav the chance to do so. but auntie May had taught me alot abt love n to care. abt life. i remb, when i first came to church, i was really afriad of her. cos she would scold me (in a gd way) when im doing things that i shouldn't do. like once i was playing ball indoor n she told me nt to cos the cantonese congregation is ard. at first i didn't like her cos of her scolding, but i realised that she scold is to teach me. thank u auntie may for everything that u hav done. you hav bless me so much. thank u.

todae was combined. after that went to macs to eat then headed to church. played captains ball. the wether todae was hot man. we played under the afternoon sun n i am like burn. even my eyes is red due to the sun... okok my eyes always red. hehe.

anyway, i wanna sae to many of my frens that im sori for at times become moody n emo. haha. sometimes im jus sian, sometimes im jus tired so sometimes i dont tok much n i start to stone. n i hav alot in my mind a times so hope u guys understand. but thank u for cheering me up. i appreciate it.

im going to slp... tired tired. haha.... jarnei.

2007-03-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

todae, went to sch feeling really slpy. i guess i feel slpy all the time. haha. todae was cooking so it was better. todae cook alot of egg dishes. like omelette, french eggs, egg sandwich n some other kind of egg dishes. didn't dare to eat alot cos it causes constipation. i bet many of u all dont noe that eggs can actually cause ppl to hav constipation. well, noe u guys noe. haha. i didn't noe it at first until i had class on mon which sae that eggs give ppl alot of protein. more protein then beef. n getting too much protein into the body can cause constipation. haha... see... at least i pay attention in class. haha.
so we cook n cook n it was lunch time. so went to westmall for lunch n after that walk abit then back to sch. had theory after that. we watch some video abt spices n herbs. the lights was off. the aircon was on. sitting at my quiet area, my eyes slowly close n there i was in my dreamland. woke up once in awhile n realised that many others was in their own dreamland too so i go back to slp. haha. woke up, copy some notes n sch ended for the dae. went to change in my casual wear n off to otrium park to meet the rest.

i reach otrium abit too early. so i decided to go upstairs, buy a drink, hear my music n wait for the rest. not long after that, sam called n 4 of them hav reach. went to look for them n slowly, one by one they came. total, 10 of us were there. tany, andy, matt, benwu, may, yingnuo, vic, sam, miaofeng n me. we wanted to eat claypot rice. so we went out but it was raining. walk under shelter n reach the place but it was close. so we started thinking of where else to go. andy noe of a place to eat so he brought us there. walk n walk until we reach the entrance of that place n guess wat... its close oso. haha... so we jus walk back n found this resturant. went in n sit down. we had congee, dim sum n some other sutff. ate alot there n tok alot. always happy to tok to them. cos they nv fail to make u laugh. after dinner, we headed down to this egg tart store n get some egg tarts. some of them bought but i didn't. after that, headed back home. here r some of the fotos.

The girls... hehe.

The guys. tany looks scary man.

This is so retarted lah. haha. candid shot.

Grp picture.

i was looking forward to reach home cos i wanna see bambam. reach home, bambam was bathing n my sis use the hair dryer to dry him n when he is dry, he look so cute cos his hair is all fluffy. haha. play with him abit n now im here updating.

tmr got test. should be easy cos its salard n abit of deep-frying stuff. thought salard is east to do, but its hard to think of ideas to give a gd presentation of the dish. haha... ohh well, tmr i'll see how things is. haha.

2007-03-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

todae i went to sch with the mondae blues. haha. slpy n tired. cos todae was theory the whole dae. tried to keep myself awake but couldn't so slept abit. todae suppose to hav cooking in the afternoon n i forgotton abt it. so i didn't bring my cooking stuff. ended up running ard searching for the things i need for cooking like apron n hat. started borrowing from teachers n frens. haha. after getting everything, we started to do sandwhich. we fry our eggs n waited for the bread to arrive. waited n waited but didn't come. so the chef said "eat up the eggs n clean up". haiz.... in the end didn't do the sandwhich but had eggs to eat. haha. after sch, wanted to go out with ppl but many of them couldn't make it so went home.

when im home, i bath n went online for awhile. soon after that, my sis called n we went to the pet shop to look at my new puppy called bambam. haha. he so cute. we actually got him last week le but when we got him, we was sick so we hav to send him back to the petshop for a week n finally he is back. he is now more playful n naughty. haha. but still not fully recovered.

tmr will be cooking again. after sch, going chinatown to eat claypot rice. yum yum.... cant wait to hang out with the grp again.

kk... now for the ans of the qus i posted in the last post.

Qus: Y is the soccer stadium so cool? (cool as in cooling)
Ans: cos there are many fans. (fans as in spectators) haha... get it?

Qus: Y is bee hair sticky?
Ans: Cos they use honey comb. get it?

i noe its lame. it was told by april so this is her kind of joke. hahaha...

alright going to bed now... jarnei.

2007-03-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

sori... hav nt been updating cos kind of lazy n busy. sometimes come home late then too tired to update. i'll try to remb wat i did this pass few daes..

umm... there was this dae where some of us meet up for dinner. matt, andy, benwu, tany, vic, yingnuo, mf n myself. 8 of us went to jdj (jian dao jian) to hav our dinner. long time nv eat there le n now get to eat it again. it was great. eat n tok. after that, went to gelato for gelato (ice-cream). sean came n join us. continue to eat n chill out there. tok alot of non sense. haha. did some farting sound using my armpit. haha.. n i realised i can play music with it. went to the toilet n andy try out his funny hairstyle. after that, went to tany hse for awhile to slack n tok. watch our "KLABS" on youtube n hardo gay. haha. hilarious. soon after that, it was late so went decided to go home. all of us went out seperate ways. andy n i were walking together n once again we pass by jdj. we stop n think weather we should eat or nt.. n guess wat? we line up to order our food. haha. eat again n after that headed to the bus stop to take bus home.

on fri, aft sch, went out with my sch frens. wanted to go auntie yulia hse to play cards n slack but ended up at orchard shopping. haha. from sch to orchard, we took so long. cos we took a bus going towards clementi but realised that the trip is super long. so we stop at jln jurong kechil there n took bus 77 to lido there. stop at pepperlunch for lunch n yum yum... all of us were hungry. eat n tok alot. then went to shop abit. cos some of them wanted to buy knief cover. after that, went to taka n walk ard. look at alot of funny stuff. n i nv imaging myself to look at cooking stuff. but yes... i did. n now its my interest. haha. after taka, went to cine to walk ard n look for bags. auntie yulia n allice wanna buy bag. but realised that alot of bags nt very nice so headed to heeren. look for bags again but still got nothin that they like so in the end, we left empty handed.

i took a bus to church. slack abit then its time for cell. i felt something is missing during cell. during worship. i donno wat izzit. i jus dont feel God on that dae. honestly, i hav nt been toking to Him. hav nt been doing my qt. maybe thats the reason im feeling this way. feeling so far away. i need strength. i need prayer. do pray for me guys if u read this post.
after cell, went to kpt to look for ppl to play Lan. after so long, finally can play again. so daniel, jeremy yap, andy, jiahao, brian n me played. this is the faster Lan gaming i played in my life. haha. played only for abt 30mins then we got to go home cos dont wanna miss the last bus/train. but its gd cos i get to fellowship with my brothers the way we did before. haha.

yesterdae, i had a test in sch. i decided to take 3 pieces of note to study n ended up, there is only 1 qus that come out. but i think its quite easy the test but im nt sure wat is my mark for it. sometimes, test can be really easy, but when its too easy, we tent to make lots of mistakes n we fail cos of that. so i only did my paper for abt 15 mins. then went to meet abi. went to hav roti plata near her place. after that, went to her place n slack abit. soon, her cousin came n slowly, more ppl came. her relatives. so i had lunch then went to play with her cousins. they so cute. small, young n playful. playing half way then suddenly heard a "BANG". the bed broke. haha. it was a double decker bed n now, its a single bed. cos her uncle took out the top part of the bed n now there is only one bed. it looks better this way. as in, it looks like there is more space in the room. after that, i was feeling quite tired so i went to slp awhile on the bed. my reson was to test out the bed weather it will spoil or nt. haha. n the rest went to watch tv. i was woken up by arron to eat dinner. woke up n realised that alot of abi relatives had gone back. eat my dinner, then went to a pub near abi place to watch soccer match. ManU vs Liverpool. it was an exciting match. i was cheering for liverpool cos abi like that team. haha. but the results was a disappointment. cos liverpool won. after the match, headed to the bus stop n back home i go. was a tiring dae but i sure had fun.

sundae, went to play abit of soccer before jyc. then its jyc. worship, Ian spoke, Small grp, Pray then lunch. ate abit of jyc food then went to 7/11 to buy swts. went for yc. after that, went to suntec with abi to look at the career fair. wanted to go there to look for jobs that related to my F&B line but it was really disappointed when im there. there is nothin there for me. most of it is for ppl who wans to go uni. ohh well... then abi went home, i went to church for captains ball. its fun but i injured once again. then after that, went to little india to the same nepalese resturant to eat with reg, emily, jiahao,andy, brian, shawn. this time, im much satisfied with todae food then last time. oso donno y. much moore full todae. brian wasn't feeling too well so we left to help him get cab but on sundaes, cab is really hard to find in little india cos on sundae, little india is really pack. so we walk to the mrt staion n headed back home n so here i am typing this. haha.

Two lame jokes i heard todae.

1 - Y is a soccer stadium so cool? (cool as in cooling)

2 - Y is Bee hair sticky?

u noe the ans, tag me n i'll tell u is correct or wrong. haha. remb... its lame so the ans might be out of point. haha

takecare. jarnei.

2007-02-26T10:56:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY
went to church early todae to set up the games for the jyc brunch out. soon after that, jyc ppl started to come into the living room n we had worship lead my ian. next, matt came to introduce abt the games to them. (gd job matt). after that, its time for the games to start. i was doing the fishing game called hook out. after the games, we headed to the basketball court n hav our lunch. Chao's Junior Burger. haha.... eat n eat n had shaker fries. eat n eat. tok n tok n its time for yc. during yc, i was reading this history book which belongs to joanne. this was the first time i read history n i find it really interesting... som many things that i didn't noe. after service, went to kopitiam n hav lunch then headed back to church for captains ball... play for only 2 games n then had a big blister. so sad.... after captains ball, we had bbq in church. the bbq was simon idea cos he is leaving the next dae back to perth. eat again then it was late so headed home.

MONDAY
was suppose to go to sch but woke up late.... haiz.... donno y can wake up late... i remb myself setting the alarm at 7am. the moment i woke up, i saw daylight. i jump out of my bed, took my fone n found out that it was oready 10. i stone there for awhile n thinking weather should i go or not. went to wash up n bath. change n stuff then in the end, went to my comp to serve the net. didn't go to sch in the end cos it was really late le. was kind of sad. y didn't my alarm wake me up? hope todae lesson in sch wont be that much. so now updating this n thinking of wat to do. umm.....

i think thats all for now. =)

2007-02-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

im so tired n slpy. but decided to update. so i jus keep it short n nice. hehe

well, todae i had sch. test. did pan-fry chicken, deep-fry fish n chicken shrogonoff. i mus sae that i did pretty bad man. donno y but i forgot to do alot of things. n for my deep-fry fish, i forgot to add flour n thats the most impt thing. donno y todae so stone n so blur. haha. but i guess overall, i did not bad.

after sch, went chinatown with my fren to buy kniefs. look ard n stuff but nothin much for me to buy so i bought only measuring spoons while my fren bought knief, peeler, measuring spoon, sharperner. n i realise one thing. i realised that even though i cut so many things in sch, chopped so many things, i nv cut my hand but when i didn't do those cutting n stuff, i ended up cutting myself. haha.. like todae, was looking at the kniefs n when i put it back, another knief cut me. but not only i got cut. but fren gt cut too. haha. weird. after that, went home. bath n slp. (btw, is that how u spell knief?) hehe

woke up at abt 5 then went to church. suppose to meet some of them for dinner at 7 but then we started eating at ard 9. so before that, was doing some painting of signs for the brunch-out this sun.
We went to soup spoon for dinner once again n this time we learn our lesson. we jus bought the regular soup with a set. n it was jus nice for me. dinner was quite funny. i laugh until cannot breath. vic is jus so funny. she was trying to do the indian kind of moving jus the head thing but she jus cant. looking at all her funny actions make my laugh even harder. but she did it finally when we r on the way back. she did it sub conciously. haha.

after dinner, went to tany hse for awhile then headed back home. haha... tmr will be sch again but a short dae. i hope. hehe. cell tmr...... gd nite.

2007-02-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

1. I was dress n make up by my sis when im young.
2. I always imaging myself to be invisible n could fly. of cos when im young.
3. I dont like to eat gd food like salmon, abalone.
4. I got smack on the butt by a gay. :(
5. I hug a guy n call him daddy n realise he isn't my daddy.
6. I stole fishball from my sch canteen. stupid rite... fishball oso steal.

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todae in sch, i learn to make afew kind of sauce. one of it of cause is mayonnaise sauce. mayonnaise sauce is the mother of most sauce. n from mayo, u can make tata sauce n thousand island. did u all noe that thousand island hav tomato sauce n chilli sauce in it. that i sure didn't noe but infact it did hav this 2 sauce in it. thats y thousand island is abt orange n stuff. anyway, after that we make this sauce called vinaigrette. i bet alot of u donno abt this sauce rite... i donno wat izzit too. i think its more for salard. its kind of sour cos of the vinegar i had inside. n finally the last sauce is salsa. salsa is kind of easy to do but i jus hate it. hehe...

tmr, will be having test again. will be doing some deep-fry dishes, pan-fry dishes n saute dishes. yum yum.... can get to save money on lunch once again.

Jus had jyc meeting jus now. we plan games n stuff n its fun. i hope that this jyc brunch out, ppl will really enjoy it. frens will enjoy n come to church.

gd nite.

2007-02-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

well, todae woke up n bath. waited for abi to call then went to pick her up from the mrt station to home. this is the first time she saw my mum n sis. haha... n i can tell that she was really nervous. after afew hrs at home, we headed down to tiong bahru plaza to catch a movie... u all would wonder how come tiong bahru... but i oso donno y there. hehe...
maybe cos there do nt hav alot of ppl. or maybe we r jus bored of town area. haha. we watch the movie "epic movie" n it was alright lah... a one and a half hour show. quite funny n stuff but i dont think its worth $9. may $7.50 is jus nice. haha... then after the movie, went to tok abit then she headed home, i headed to tany's place. alot of ppl were there. play boogle, play station, dota n eat pizza.

Tany - thank u for the pizza. thank u for being a great host.

well, i played alot of playstaion. played gunbullet n time crisis 3. fun cos there is guns to play with. but the aiming was quite off. but its cool. after that, many had left n so only 6 of us were there. sharon, yingnuo, sam, vic, mf n me. so after afew games of gunbullet, we headed home. sharon wanted to take cab so ya. haha...

Sharon - Dont everytime take cab ah... no gd. hehe. bad habit. but thank u.

well, tmr is back to sch again. practical n more practical. feeling quite sian abt it n i want to pon class but i noe that i cant afford to pon any lessons. so ya. tmr i'll go to sch n learn more stuff. n tmr hav jyc games meeting. hope i wont be tired during meeting.

i think i better go n slp nw or else tmr i be zombiefied in sch or i forgot to wake up. haha... gd nite all.

2007-02-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the morning n rush down to church. i was late but i wasn't the only one. saw some who came later. so took a lift to the six floor n into the living room i go. worship n pray n word. after that, hang ard for awhile to wish ppl a happy chinese new year. saw abi with skirt n it looks great on her. hehe.. soon, i went to macs for lunch with some. ate n ate until quite full then left to meet tany. he was so late. hehe... but it was ok. i while waiting for him, i had starbucks at cityhall. while drinking my mocha frappacino n hearing my music on the ipod. n was thinking of my life in aus when im there... their life was simple. as in there were lots of cafe there n every morning i wake up, i will go down to a cafe to drink. kk... back to starbucks... drink n daydream until tany called n met him n sean in the mrt station. went to bishan but sharon wasn't here yet so went to coffee bean to drink... haha... again. hehe... after that, went to meet sharon n her elder bro fetch us to their auntie place n alot of ppl were their. all their relatives n cousins. n shawn was there too. haha long time nv see him le. played abit of computer game, watch abit of television. tok abit to their relatives. get quite alot of angbao. hehe. played with sharon's nephew. he so cute lah... haha... sometimes hearing baby tok to u makes u fly. as in i get really happy when a small kid tok to me. haha. so cute... unlike some that tok really little to strangers, their nephew jus love to tok to us. haha. then after that, we got to leave n sharon's uncle fetch us to auntie honey place. chit chat abit, took some fotos then of i went to vivocity where i met ben, jo.k, pui, matt, merv n britney there for a movie. had carls jr before that. went to the movie at abt 8.40pm but we gt only the front row which honestly, really bad sits. so we waited for the show to start n all of us went to the stairs to sit. haha... so paikia. n i can sae, we make quite alot of noise there. we laugh so loud. tok so loud. haha. wonder wheather ppl r irritated by us. haha. we watch the movie norbit. eddie murphy was acting in it. it was really funny but kind of gross too. crude. donno if others will like it or nt but for me, i find it ok only lah. haha. then after the movie, headed home.

tmr will be a dae of visiting to my relatives. going to my grand auntie place first then to my auntie place at the patels (wonder if i'll see may like last yr there). haha. then to my cousins place at yew tee there.

then tues, still thinking of wat to do.

kk... thats all for now. ehehe. take care.

2007-02-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

This r some or the pics i took when im out having fun with the same grp of ppl. hehe.

This is when we r out having dinner at some nepal resturant. nice food.

The guys n of cos the 2 kssers. hehe.

Yandao Andy

Tired n Emo Yingnuo

Me posing for some ad

This is when we were bowling at marina square but too bad i only gt one pic.

Miaofeng n Andy... i wonder where they r looking at? umm....

N this r the pics we took in matt hse. Some of the pose is from the game we played.

Guess who r we... =)

N some nice fotos of us. hehe.

well, yesterdae ben, sam, vic n i met up for dinner at cityhall soup spoon. all of us didn't noe that the portion is really big so we ordered a grande(large) soup. n we still thought it wasn't enough so we order the set which consist of a sandwich n a drink. i eat n eat n eat until im bloated man. so in the end, i didn't get to finish my soup. but at least i manage to finish the sandwich. of cos, we didn't quietly hav our dinner... with 4 of us who can tok alot of non sense, we started toking alot... vic laugh so hard that we were afraid of her spitting out all her chicken sandwich out. so we tried to avoid her when she is laughing. hehe... then sam...... she kind of weird wan. look at ppl laugh, she oso laugh for nothin. n her laughter was like.... urrr ......... urrr ......... urrr ....... all i could hear was the "urrr" hahaha...
here r some of the pics we took.

This r the food we ate. yum yum... -drooling-

Vic n me posing for ad. ( i realise i love to pose for ad ah)

N this is our hungry face.

so in the end, we did try to finish out food by playing this "zong zi mi ma" game. we played 4 games n thank God i didn't hav to eat any. haha...

after dinner, vic n sam went home. ben n i went to timbre(bar) to meet mentor n justin. soon matt came. it was great. the songs they played. was looking at the drummer n he was so relax n gd. how i wish one day i could play like him. hehe... after they hav finish the first set, matt n i left n we headed to pool fusion for some pool (duh). ohh man... i lose. haha... then matt send me home. Thank u matt.

i really had a great time spending my past few weeks with the same grp of ppl. hope that we will hav more of this. take care...
going to reunion dinner soon.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL OF U. hav fun.... Ang bao..... here i come !!!!.

2007-02-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

i realise that this week is a fast week for me... its oready thurs n in an hour time, its fri n comes the cny holidays. really looking forward to the holidaes n get some rest n fun.

This week hav been practical, practical n practical. due to the holidays coming ahead, they hav push forward some of the practicals. but i wont be complaining cos actually, i would prefer to hav practical then to hav theory. during theory, i would feel so slpy n stone n i'll be keeping myself awake by eat snacks, sweets or playing game on my fone. i will start toking alot in class n stuff. haha...

This past few daes, i hav been learning to cook chicken n stuff but i realised that even when i learn to cook this kind of dishes, i cant cook it at home. cos u need to roast the chicken in the gas oven but at home, i dont hav one. only a microwave oven that would even help abit. haha... so im looking forward to cook some dishes that maybe i could cook it at home. or for my frens or maybe even for occations. sometimes i jus think wat will i do in the future. as in in my working life. since im taking this course n im loving it, maybe i'll be a chef. hopfully i can succeed in this line. thinking of my future.

Todae i tok to tany abt this wierd topic called "marriage". it might seems like marriage is along way from now but come to think of it, maybe not. maybe if for tany, he is 24 this yr. n if he was to get married by 27, its like only 3 yrs from now. n before u noe it, he is oready a dad. haha...

anyway, todae i had practical. learn to roast chicken n grill chicken. learn to debone the chicken oso. n there was a point i get so frustrated with my teacher. he keeps naggina n nagging man. sometimes jus ask him qus, he hav to shout... hiyo... then after practical, headed to matthew hse where tany, yingnuo, sam, vic n mf is oready there playing boardgames. of cos ally n julian is there too. hehe. after that, auntie valerie cook for us this simple but delicious dish. first time having it this way. its like we had prata. but in that prata, we put tuna, chilli sauce, mayo, eggs, sauages n veg. yum yum... then after dinner, headed to matt room to continue our game. it was fun fun fun. soon, its 9 n we headed back home.

Tmr will be another practical for me. learning to cook fish finger... maybe this i can cook for others. haha. thats all for now... going to bed now.

2007-02-14T01:21:00.000+08:00

To James.... dont think u will be seeing this but jus wanna sae that i miss u alot. thanks for being there. had fun playing soccer n jus hanging out with u. turbo james... the one that outrun us. haha... love u bro. take care n see u when u r back.

jus join jyc ministry not long ago n im really looking forward to seeing the younger ones grow. to be man n woman of God. i noe it will be hard at the bigginning cos im new to jyc but i hope n i pray that the ppl there will like me. i wanna be a big brother to them. someone where they could turn to. God jus come n take control.

This is the few ppl i hav been spending my time with after sch. andy, matt, benwu, yingnuo, sam, miao, vic, may.
To all of them - Thank u for being in my life. for being there to crap ard with me. to laugh n tok nonsense together. thank u so much. hope that this is only the start n it will nv be the end. but like wat some saes, that sometimes time changes n things change. we might one dae go n do our own stuff. busy with work. busy with sch. busy with relationship n busy with life. we might see each other as often as we can now but no matter how much we see each other or how much we dont see each other, u guys will always be my gd brothers n sisters.

tany - Thank u for always being such a great brother. had fun playing Lan, bowling, toking rubbish, jking ard, n so much more. infact, u r one of the close one i hav in church. sharon is like my sister n u r like my brother. haha....

19 - hey sis... jus wanna tell u that no matter wat hav happen. no matter how u think. no matter how u feel, im right here.

Love u all.... Happy Valentine Day.

2007-02-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

hello peeps. its been awhile since i last updated this blog due to some technical faults. my comp was attack by this deadly virus that wipe out the system in my comp. finally i can update this thx to my sis laptop. but somehow, i find it hard to use it though cos its a apple laptop. so diff from microsoft. but somehow, i think apple is fun to use.

anyway, this pass few daes hav been great. hav been hanging out with the same grp of ppl. fun to be with. going out to hav dinner. play card. go shopping. walk ard. chill out. they really r a bunch of funny n fun ppl to be with. hope that this wouldn't change. though i hav been going out n spending quite alot, i really enjoyed it alot. going to bowling. which i hav not bowl for a super long time. did quite badly for it but it was fun. play pool was great too. matt n andy pro man. so this pass few daes was fun fun fun. having to spend time with frens is one of the greatest thing anyone would do.

Well, for sch, this week was kind of tiring. had 2 practical test. which one of it hav to make 3 kinds of soup. the othere one is make 5 kind of sauce. all within 5 hrs. so its really been a tiring wk but was fun. then todae, finally no more sauce n soups. its come to the big dishes. the main dishes. hehe. todae i cook 2 kind of fish. one is steam fish, the other is poach fish. many of u might not noe wat is poach fish... let me explain... .............. .............. .................. erm.... i think jus ask me when u see me. hard to explain on this. hehe. then i cook 2 kind of chicken oso. will tell u wat kind of chicken when u see me. hehe. lazy to explain. but it was great. ate n ate after i cook n thats lunch. free lunch with the blood n sweat of nukes.

jus got home from dinner. had dinner at little india with benwu,andy,matt,ivan,daniel,sean,yingnuo,sam,may. it was the first time im eating napal food n it was delicious. they had this fried lady fingers that i hav nv eat before. butter chicken which is so gd. 3 different kind of nun(bread). yum yum... im sure i'll go there one dae again to eat.

i guess thats all for todae. will update again soon. thank u all for the fun time i hav with u.

2007-01-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

hello all... its been awhile ah... due to my lousy comp that i rarely use it now. started sch this week n so far, its been really gd. sometimes look forward to go to sch. frens there r really great. funny n able to tok to n joke ard. infact, i hav nv hav a class like this before. jus first day of sch, n it seems like we hav known each other for awhile. thats how close were. 26 ppl in the class n even going out for lunch, 26 of us go together. haha. but jus yesterdae, my class was upset over something cos one of my teacher got sack for some reason. ohh well.

reading at others blog, alot of them r having such great time having to spend time with frens n stuff. like catching up with one another. i wan that too but i felt that as they r doing so, im not. infact, im drifting away from alot of my frens. tried going out with them n stuff but jus felt so left out. felt like they dont noe me oready. maybe i shouldn't care abt church ppl anymore as in catch up with them. cos they hav their own click oready. i think its time to mix with another grp of ppl. i was really upset yesterdae cos firstly, of my teacher who gt sack n seondly, of some who i think is kind of irresponsible. some who wouldn't reply my sms. some who sae meet at a place but in the end didn't turn up or had change plan n didn't bother to tell me. some who plan to meet but was late n didn't bother to call. haiz... i wonder y ppl r like that. dont they noe how ppl will feel. i wonder r they worth being called my frens at all. i hope they r but sometimes i jus wonder. even church frens do that. wat kind of a teaching is that.

really no mood lah. dont think i'll even ask them whether they r free or not. no point. hate being PS. hate being use. hate this kind of ppl. sori.

2006-12-18T16:35:00.000+08:00

Good day mate... jus got back from melb yesterdae evening n my trip there was not bad. went for my sister graduation n it was so so boring. cos like alot of toking n stuff so most of time i wasn't there listening but was outside drinking coffee n having chips to eat. but when finally they tok finish, it was time for the reciving of the cert. n so i went back in. was looking out for my sis to get her cert but hers was near to the end. alittle bit of discribtion of wat my sister study there. She is studying in RMIT university in melbourne. she took Media as her course. pretty cool. n i notice that her frens r very fun to be with. like can tok alot n pose in fotos n r not afraid of wat ppl think of them. n i think that cos media needs to hav this kind of ppl that can tok alot.

so besides going for my sis graduation, i did abit of shopping. abit of chilling out at pubs n cafes. n did lots of travelling in ard melb.

went to the beach there which is near st.kilda to look. not bad... nicer then singapore beaches. ahaha. went to hav a drink there n woah the weather there is shiok. windy n chilling.

went to this place where they had wine tasting. thie wines there r really cheap. tasted this rose wine n its not bad. wanted to get one but my sis got the other one which she likes. haha. ohh well. =).

went to a strawberry farm to pick strawberries. yum yum... the strawberries there r huge like i nv seen before. so we starting picking it n eating it. nice. we dip it with melted chocolate n eat it. delicious.

did abit of shopping. n the stuff there r not cheap at all. haha. its either ard the same price as singapore or more ex.

n if ever u go aus n wanna rent a car, think twice. the parking that is a killer. it can make an average guy broke. haha. like if u park in singapore maybe for a whole dae, maybe it cost ard $5. but in aus, u park for the whole dae, it can cost like $24. 1 hour is abt $5. haha. expensive expensive.

i guess thats abt all. hehe. kind of lazy to type le. ahaha. anything jus ask me loh.

byebye

2006-12-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

hello... well, i'll be leaving to aus for my sis grad tmr. n will be back on the 17th dec. hope to enjoy my time there. hehe. the past last week, was really tiring. like sending ppl off for missions n stuff. had really little time to slp but im happy to send them off. so many ppl hav left but soon they will be back. yesterdae, we had walkaton ard esplanade to raffles place area then back to esplanade. distance not really that far. we tok n walk at the same time n it was fun. after that, went to hav lunch at marina square. yum yum... had curry fish slice rice. after lunch, some of us headed back to church. slack ard n nth to do... ard 1plus start to play capts ball. ended n went to bath. aftet that, headed to ps to get movie tix for the show "dejavu". decided to watch movie last min cos really got nothin to do. then had dinner at meridian. fish n chip. delicios n filling. after dinner went back to ps n watch movie. its gd man... u guys should watch it. hehe. i was like falling aslp at first cos i was really slpy but when watching the show, i jus cant go to slp. haha. exciting. hehe. then after that headed home. haha.

i think thats all for me... see u guys when im back. take care.

2006-11-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

hello... i got something to update le. hehehe... does anyone watch naruto? if u did, i had 2 videos that eddie, james n me acted out.... super funny. n we hav 2 camara girls. yingnuo n kelsie to firm this oscar winning clips. if u all wanna see, jus tell me. i hav it on my fone.

did car washing on fri. after a long time, i finally wash cars again. haha. washing starts ard 11pm. where at frist, we were jus going to wash one car for the nite but turns out as when more ppl came, more cars we gt to wash. the car washers are: Kel, yn, mf, vic, A. li cheng, nigel n me. 7 of us wash 11 cars n 1 vespa in total for 3 hours. our record breaking time. haha... it was fun but tiring too. ended the washing ard 3+ am n pack up. went to eat abit here n there. then some of us handed to the hand out room to hang out. haha. then some of them slept until ard 6am, yn, mf n i went to macs to hav breakfast. 3 of us went but only i ate. hehe. after that headed home.
reach home ard 7, then bath n went online but nothin to do online so went to hav a slp at ard 8. set alarm at 9 cos got soccer at ard 10. but the next thing i noe, i woke up n its 11. so i rush down on a cab n i got lost. haha. the cab driver donno where is the location n i dont oso... but in the end reach n the cab fare is like 10 bucks. haha. went to the field n jus in time for second half. quite proud of myself, cos due to insufficent slp, i manage to play one half without letting in any goals.
after soccer, gt a ride from jing to home. bath n stuff n headed to cityhall to meet abi. follow her to buy a pair of slippers for her cousin n headed down to paya lebar for a bbq. met so many ppl i donno but it was fun. while bbq-ing, weather was kind of funny. God is playing with us. hahaha... like it drizzle then stop. drizzle then stop. so we go into shelter then out. into shelter then out. haha... until we dont care le... hahah. the after bbq, went to cut cake then i went off to meet my fren. he wanna go for supper so i went along n guess wat. i eat again. hokkian mee... haha... so full.

anyway, so many ppl is leaving... so as in for long term but for holidaes. haha... andy n bianca has oready left....
tmr is mf...
i so wanna go for holidae oso... but mine is like next yr. haha... getting impatient.

i guess thats all for now... jarnei.

2006-11-24T10:53:00.000+08:00

i really donno wat to update abt.... maybe i hav lots to update but jus that im lazy.

well, i hav register to shatec oready n now im waiting for them to call me to see which intake im in. they r trying to put me in the january intake cos its almost full. if not, it will be either april or july which is so long away n i donno wat i'll do before sch starts. properbly work i guess.

2wks ago, sat, i finally get to catch up with my hang out grp again... darren, yunting, andy, shawn. though its only for a short while, im still glad. jus walk ard n tok...

yesterdae, was suppose to meet up with lynn for lunch. i reach church early, n when u take a look at the children church camp. n some of them were preparing games so i went to help them out n lynn came n was drag to help them out oso. so in the end we didn't went for lunch. haha. but im glad i did help out in the camp. after getting to noe the children, though they can be really noisy n playful, they r cute n funny too. saw the dance they did... haha... cute man.

so i guess thats all the update i hav... really nothin to update. hehe... maybe when i can think of more then i'll write it down. take care.

2006-11-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

yo... its time to update. let me tok abt yesterday first.

yesterdae was a really fun day for me n i really enjoyed myself alot. woke up early n meet tany sean n grace. was suppose to meet earlier then the rest of the jyc ppl cos we were suppose to look at the beaches there n see which is the best place for the younger ones. n as usual, we were late except grace. n to my amazment, i saw april there oready. n soon after that, ally n charmaine came. in my heart, i was thinking like "wow. they mus hav really been looking forward to this outing." so grace, tany, sean n me when to sentosa to look at the beaches first. very lil of ppl were there. but we headed to our usuall beach which is tanjong beach cos that beach is the beach with the most space where the younger ones can hav fun at. after getting a nice spot at the beach, we started playing with soccer n frysby. played awhile n soon the grp of jycers came. get settled down n its time to play games. first, we played this game called line tag. next we played dog n bone. i really wanted to play with the younger ones but i didn't cos i need to help out in counting scores for them. but i did had fun even though i didn't played cos im glad i hav this oppotunity to serve God as well as the jycers. i hope they had fun. after the games, we had lunch brought by sharon, nicole n dan. yum yum... the food is great n there were plenty to go ard. i was hungry but i felt that i shouldn't eat so much cos i really really wan them to hav fun n enjoy. so after lunch, i went with some of them to buy drinks at padawan beach. while the others hav their own free time to play. after buying drinks, came back n join them. swim, played frysby, played soccer, play monkey n catch sea creatures. its fun man. looking at sea creatures can be kind of fun too. n i touch jellyfishes. it was the first time i ever touch them n it so cool man. n we caught baby squit that can change colour. but of cos, end of the day, we let them off into the sea again.

the most impt thing i take back from the outing is getting to know alot more of them. ppl that i dont usually tok to in church. =)

firstly, i wanna thank God for the wonderful weather He hav provided. heard from my mum that yesterdae, almost every part of Singapore rain very heavily but sentosa was great. the weather was superb.

n of cos, im burn nw n red. pain too. hehe. n after that, went for dinner n to cell. during cell, i prayed that i wont be slpy cos of the tiring dae i had n God really took away the tiredness. i was so awake. haha. yesterdae cell was abt accountability n we went into small grps depending on age. n share diff kind of things. after cell, eddie came to me n ask whether i wanna serve in teens or at jyc. i hav been thinking alot abt jyc n so i told him jyc. n so he ask me to prayed n ask God. so thats wat im gonna do. I love the jycers alot n i wan them to grow to be strong men n woman of God. i wanna be their big brother. i wanna be the one that they can be comfortable with. i wanna be there for each n everyone of them. i love them so much.

Todae, i was suppose to go for a soccer match but i didn't cos i couldn't wake up. woke up ard 10+ n get rdy to go out cos meetin abi. so went to ps n waited for her (as usual. hehe. jking). went to look for movie to watch n decided to watch sinking of japan. had like 1 hr to spare so jus walk ard tok n stuff. then headed to the cinema. the show i think ok lah but i guess i was tired n slpy so abit doze off while watching. hehe. after that, bibi got to go to her grandma place so i went to church. slept abit there then slack abit loh. played guitar, see some of them played risk. tok to pastor. n told auntie li cheng abt me praying abt jyc. yup. so thats all for my dae todae. tmr going for jyc n yc. n donno wat i'll be doing after that. hope gt some programme for me to do or else boring. hehe. thats all for nw.

JARNEI.

2006-10-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

hello all... well, this past few days hav been fun n tiring man. let me see wat did i do... ummm......

23th Oct

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIBI
went to sentosa with only afew. anais, sharon, tany, ivan n me. PSI wasn't that bad. n so we headed down to sentosa ard 12.30. but as usual, many were late. cant blame them cos i do sometimes come late for appointments oso. hehe. we went to hav our lunch at the hawker center at houbourfront then after that headed into sentosa. wasn't really alot of ppl there but lots of tourist. headed to tanjong beach where there wasn't much ppl so that we could hav more space to play. as usual, the girls go there for some tanning n the guys went to play. frysby. did nt play much cos only the 3 guys were there so decided to go for a swim. swim to the other side n ivan jus fell aslp there. haha. while tany n i tok abit n chill out. after awhile, saw the girls going back to the shelter, we swim back. it was ard 4+ when we decided to head back. so we went to bath n stuff n took the bus back to houbourfront. while the rest went to vivo city, i rush to jurong point. where there will be a small small surprise for abi. i thought i was gonna be late n couldn't surprise her in time but thanks to may, i did surprise her. i think. hehe. so went with abi to tempines where we took a bus from there to changi chalet. we kind of donno where to stop but thank God we stop at the rite place where uncle bernard is there waiting for us. we were kind of late. but when we reach there, many ppl were there n i kindda felt wierd being there. cos this chalet is for the toh tuck cell grp. n some of them ask their children along n i do nt hav anyone there. anyway, reach there n i jus ate. they were having bbq. while the adults were having fun, so were some of us. thank God that they were there or else i'll be so left out. matthew, julian, jeremy, timmy, arron, ally, charmaine, gracia, ana, abi n i. we had fun. n i get to know them better. like jeremy, timmy, charmaine n gracia. i dont really tok to them in church but through this chalet, i did. had fun. stay over with the rest.

24th Oct
i was the last to wake up n headed down for breakfast. after breakfast, 11 of us headed down to changi beach for cycling. uncle jimmy drove the girls down n matthew drove the guys their together with uncle bernard. i didn't that matt oready hav a licence. wat am i waiting for me. hehe. so, charmaine n ana didn't cycle so only the 9 of us did. it was fun man but my butt hurts. hehe. changi beach isn't that big so we like cycle from one end to the other afew times. n after awhile, some of us headed down to the playground n play. i played with the swing n was thinking abt how long ago i played that. it was ages ago. i remember going playground with my childhood frens which now, i donno where hav all of them been. i miss it man. anyway, after cycling, we heading back to the chalet where the adults r still having their session. so while waiting for them, we tok n watch tv n played games. after their done, we headed down for lunch. eat n eat then headed back up n continue with the tv n games. after that, we were ask to go down n played games plan by the adults. i need to apologise to them man. cos before i played their games, i always thought that their games would be boring but ended up, i had really lots of fun. uncle kennerth plan the games which was fun man. first, we did some personality questions which i was confuse. hehe. but finding out which colour am i, was interesting. their r 4 colours which represent u from the question that u hav ans. so my colour was White. the gd part abt White is, tolerant, patient, cooperative, accepting, objective, balanced, excellent at listening. while the bad part abt White is, timid, silently stubborn, emotionally, dishonest, lazy, uninvolved, dependent, directionless. haha. which i think most of them r true abt me. hehe. after doing the questions, we headed of with this game. i donno wat it is called but it was fun. its like whack the person n run the the sit without getting whack. get it? hehehe. then follow by another game which require acting. so five of us went up n one by one, we were called to go down. we were suppose to act out wat the person before u acted out so we did. but when i acted it out, its far far from wat the first person acted it. haha. then after the game, we play the 20 cent game. haha. donno how to explain it but its fun. after that, we played the game which i kind of like. haha. its "SAR". after games, the adults went to cook while 11 of us went to play. haha. time for dinner n we headed down to eat. n there were so much food n so many of us couldn't finsh so much of it. after dinner, played game of life n played this game called marco polo. tiring game man. then watch tv. soon, many ppl need to go home, they hav work the next day or sch the next day. so in the end, only uncle bernard, uncle kevin, abi n i was left. called dan to come n he did. he came n hang out abit n left together with uncle kevin. so fast. so only 3 of us stayed over.

25th Oct
woke up ard 8.30 then went down to pack the place. uncle boon chao drove the van n we pack the things into the van. after that, we headed to changi hawker center for lunch. nasi lemak. then headed back to church. unpack the stuff, did alittle bit of cleaning of the van then headed to jyc room to play drums. abi is gd man. her drum skills. i need to buck up with mine. then after that, headed back home. tired n slpy. hehehe. n now, updating this blog.

Thanks to the adults for making this few days so fun n wonderful.
Thanks to 1o of u all for the games n company n nt letting me feel left out.
Thanks to abi n uncle bernard for inviting me to this chalet.
Thanks to uncle bernard for nasi lemak n cycling.
Thanks to abi for the company.
Thanks to God for this wonderful time i had.

I think thats all for now. take care. =)

2006-10-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

im staring at my comp nw wanting to blog cos i hav nth to do but nothing seems to come into my mind of wat to blog about.
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hiya... i'll jus blog about wat i did yesterdae. well, met bibi yesterdae for lunch before church then had long john silver. yum yum. but it was so filling man. then later headed to church but was alittle late. hehe. then ohh no.... my stomuch hurt. so went to the toilet n let it all out. hehe. Andy wee was the speaker n at least i wasn't slpy. so i was listening. n stoning at the same time. after service, we had a short teens meeting. tok about mission trips n stuff. after that, headed down n there was connection meeting but i didn't feel like going so went to lunch instead with may. i had mince meat noodle n super big gulp. headed back to church after that n saw something gross. a kitten. that is flatten by all the cars n its gross lah. dont wanna sae it in detail of how it looks like.haha. then slack in church as usual cos got nth to do. played basketball, rugby n freesby. then it was late n some were jamming upstairs. after jamming, reg came down n i manage to tok to her. after toking, went for dinner at ps. had burger king. then later saw bibi n her frens. so funny lah. then walk ard n then headed home.

Maybe i should tok abt wat i did on sat.had soccer in the morning but only 8 of us turn up n had to play 4 on 4. wat on earth. haha. then went to hav lunch then went to bath n went to meet bibi at queenstown mrt. we went to VIVOCITY with. its huge man i we almost gt lost. cost vivo n houbourfront center is link to each other n we walk n walk n i was thinking how come this place looks so famillier n realised its houbourfront center. then walk back. both of us were so tired. i had soccer, she had training. the trackist. haha. then after that, she went to meet her parents n i went to meet my frens at parklane. dont hav to sae wat i did there rite. hehe. cos wat else i'll go there for. had macs first cos i was hungry n then played abit of game then left my frens n went to hotel rendovious to hav dinner at sushi don. yum yum. but wasn't that hungry n abit no money so jus ate abit of sushi. then had tau huai then went to meet my frens again. played again then go n eat at some kopitiam. then headed home. come to think of it, i ate super alot on that dae lah. first had nasi lemak after soccer, then had macs at parklane, played awhile then sushi then tau huai, then played awhile again, then pork chop set with rice.
ohh my gosh... thats alot man. haha. need to start exercising again. burn those fats away.

Thank you for spending time with me. Thank you for making time for me. Thank you for the understanding. Thank you for the Love you gave me. Now let me be the one to do all this things. =).

2006-10-09T11:02:00.000+08:00

I miss the times when we were at the old church. so family like but now... as many ppl hav grown up n many ppl hav change, i jus felt that we aren't the same as before. church doesn't seem that family as before. sometimes i jus hate sundaes when after service there is nth to do with the family. everyone seems to go n do their own things. after service everybody seems to be gone n no one is left in church. i noe ppl hav change n of cos i noe i hav change. but i really miss the times i had last time at the old church.
i use to like spending time with church ppl the most but now, i dont think so. i would rather spend time with my secondary sch frens. church isn't the same no more n i hate it alot. i hate it.
enough of that... anyway, was working on sat n it was kind of slack n easy money. all i hav to do is stand there n tell ppl nt to go into this place cos its out of bound. n maybe oso tell ppl directions to the place. so after awhile, i realise that ppl didn't come my way so was bored n so i started walking ard the compound. went to tok to lester then to shiyun n then go n visit may. n walk n walk n walk until times up. manage to make some new frens but in the end, i guess thats jus a one dae fren. didn't get any contacts or wat so ever.
yesterdae, went out with abi n then to church for service. service was nt bad cos we watch a movie. interesting. n then after service, the usual... BORING. went to hav lunch then back to church. super boring man. went to play abit of basketball then some rugby, then some soccer but man it was boring. then in the evening, ppl started to play lantern n fire sparkers n i didn't wanna be moody n let ppl see me like that so i went to get a lantern oso. after that, they had dinner in church.
i was at the table waiting to eat n suddenly i heard pui said to ben.......
Pui: Count how many people here?
Ben: 17
Pui: i thought only 10?
Ben: Only 10 people told me. dont noe y so many ppl here.
Pui: Who didn't tell you?

when hearing all this, i was like wat on earth lah. there r so many food n yet he make a big fuss over this. Grow up lah. i dont blame ben for this man cause he was jus doing wat he is suppose to do but that pui... i cant stand him for so long le. so i went out n didn't wanna eat.
after awhile, i went to cathay to meet my frens for move "World Trade Center" i thought it was a nice show but then haiz.... such a disappointment. maybe its jus me but if u all wanna watch it, maybe u would like it.

anyway, im going off. bye

2006-09-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

let me update the things i hav done during the week. well, this week was kind of a week where i think alot. this is wat happen. on tues, we heard the terrible news abt merv's dad. i guess many of u should hav known wat had happen so i dont hav to sae it. at nite i didn't noe wheather to go or nt but i decided to go last min. went there n saw many church ppl n merv's relatives, friends, n family. could see in their eyes that they r really sad abt wat had happen but on the outside, they r strong. this was the first time i saw uncle.

went on wed oso n thurs n fri was the wake service. it was great man. saw many ppl teared n all. n the worship was great. thurs was pui n reg played n fri was ian who came back from aus to attend the wake service. i was really touch by that. we r really like a family. even when one is at overseas n something had happen to one of the family member, they would come back.

for the past few daes i was there, i was thinking alot. abt how life is so unpridictable. one moment u r with him n next moment, its the last. n hearing from merv how he found out abt his dad death when he reach home, it super scary. if i were in his shoes, i wouldn't noe wat to do next. n i think that through this wake service n stuff, things hav change alot... n hope that ppl will come to the Lord. todae was the cremate n everythings was gd. of cos ppl cried n stuff n i noe that this was the hardest cos i hav been through with it before.

but hav to be happy with it man. cos now the Lord had taken uncle back to His side. uncle job on earth has been done n acomplish.

well, i jus had my hair cut yesterdae n i love it alot. its cheap n nice. so anyone who wans to gd n nice hair cut, can always find my beloved granddaughter may pang li si. hehe. yup... she was the one who cut for me n ever since i saw my hair, i hav been looking at myself on the mirror. thank u girl.
at first i was pretty afraid of wat she will do to my hair cos i hav nv seen her cut hair before n i was rdy to grab a cap after the hair cut. but to my amazment, i love it alot. n so u hav earn ur ah gong trust. hehe. will let u cut my hair in future. hehehe... love it.

2006-09-18T12:15:00.000+08:00

hello... im gonna update finally. hehe. well, sch for me hav been alright. at times, i jus didn't feel like going to sch but in the end i went. hehe. its been harder n harder n there r still so much i dont understand. i jus hope that when exams r near, it will nt be as hard as i expected it to be.

this 2 wks is my holidaes but its gonna be so boring. my holidae jus falls on the wrong daes man. n all my frens r having exams now or soon n i dont wan to trouble them oso. ohh well, i'll find things to do then. hehe.

umm... i really donno wat to update leh... cant think of anything. well, if u all can give me idea to wat to update, that will be good. hehe. well, i hope that all u ppl will do well for ur exams. no worries man. jus do ur best n leave to rest. ehehe. take care peeps.

2006-08-28T18:25:00.000+08:00

hello... i hav been kind of lazy updating this blog man. hehe. jus woke up n im still tired. well, hav been going to sch n stuff n im starting to dislike it alot but i noe that thats nt wat im suppose to feel. so im trying to forcus on it n make it fun but its so hard. todae i was having this programming funtamental lesson n i was feeling so nt gd. even aft sch, i kept thinking of it n i wanna do well n get gd results but the thought of it makes me think that i cannot make it. its so hard larh.... all the codes n s tuff u hav to remember. if u were to ask me any question abt it, i really donno how to ans u. i jus hope that i'll get to familarise with the codes soon. n the maths is killing me. im nt gd maths in the first place n nw, the maths r harder n the teaching is going so fast. tried asking ppl but they do nt noe how to do oso. hiya... the reason y i wanna do well is nt only because of the diploma. but because i wanna proof to some that i can make it. im nt useless. n i really dont wan them to think of me that way. n on sun, during service, i couldn't concentrate so i went down for a drink n i didn't wanna go back up for service. this sister was there n she kept asking me to go up but i didn't wanna go up n she said that im useless, im hopeless n i noe that she doesn't mean it at all but deep down, those she said really bother me alot. n i kept thinking of the words she said n i jus felt that im really useless n hopeless.

nt only in studies but oso in my walk with God. sign... i need to go back to God. i need Him to be in charge once again. n for studies, i need to pay attention more n nt let others pull me down. Lord help me.

2006-08-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

Wow... jus came back from a wonderful concert. It was awsome man. well, todae i was home the whole dae n was slacking n blogging n stuff. n after that, went to meet the rest at expo burgerking for dinner but ended up at the kopitiam beside. had duck rice but still hungry so went to bk to buy a sandwich meal. super pig loh. hehe. then after that headed to the concert. the moment i step into the hall, it really felt like im going clubbing. the ultraviolet lights n stuff. really felt like it. n with the rnb music n stuff. so cool. they didn't make it seem like its some christian concert. they make seem so nice. i was thinking of how ppl will feel n i can sae that even the non christian will feel great in that place. it felt so comfortable n nice.

Well, while waiting for the concert to start, we went to get sits n of cos chop sits for others who r late. while waiting, we found this drawing thing in the goodie bag n we started drawing on one another. my face was filled with drawings n i dont even noe how i look like. hehe. cant see myself. n i started catching up with alot of ppl. so fun to hav them with u. then the concert start n we rush down to the center n started jumping ard n singing praises n stuff. i was like perspiring so much jus when the song started. so hot n stuffy n i was jumping n singing my lungs out. lost my voice. but all this was great. then after concert, wanted an oncore but ohh well, at least we tried. headed home after that.

i really think that God hav shown me alot.

To you that i care the most. i hav come back to God n i noe u r straggling too. u told me that u felt so far from church n u r drifting away. but u hav to take that step to come back. its nt jus wait n see for results but the hardest part is taking that step to obey once again. wat i learn todae is, u cant jus only give ur heart to Him but u gt to give ur life to Him oso. i really wan u to come back. i pray that u will nt let that feeling take control over u. take care.

cheers.

2006-08-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

kk... let me write another post here. i was jus thinking abt some stuff while waiting to be 4pm so that i could leave my hse n head down to expo to meet the rest for dinner then go for the planetshakers concert. n wat i was thinking, make me realised some stuff in life.

Once in awhile, i will look back at my life n sometimes i jus ask God y izzit that all this r happening to me. i can sae that this life im having isn't perfect at all. infact, its one of those life that u hav to go through so much since young till now n im sure there r more. but i noe that i hav a perfect God n thats all that matters. looking back at my past, it makes me think so much. how i thought that it will nt happen to me but yet it does. like looking back at my parents who is seperated. funny thing is when young, i use to watch those chinese dramas n lots of them had divorce in it n i sae to myself that this wouldn't happen to my family but in the end, it did. it hurts alot in the beginning but after awhile, u get use to it. n so much hav happen in this life like relationships n frenships that hav jus gone down the drain. misunderstanding with one other. mistakes that ppl do. so many things that hav happen in my life.
but, i hav no regret over this anymore. i realised one thing that all this hav happen for a purpose. after going through all this, i hav grown stronger n learning from this mistakes makes me even stronger. perharps this r the things that God wans me to hav. after having all this learnings, God hav send ppl into my life to ask my qus. n since i hav gone through it, i truly understand the things that they share. n thats how i encourage them n share abt my own story. n i ask God,
"Lord, dont stop all this trails n testing cos this is where i learn new stuff. This is where i learn to obey You n help others who r in need of help."

So guys, every one of us will hav problems that sometimes we jus cant face it. or sometimes it jus hurt so much. but let me encourage u that this r the times where u learn n grow. well, if u all hav any probs that u would like to share, u can always find me. n i hope that i'll be able to help u. take care y'all.

2006-08-11T11:01:00.000+08:00

hello... its been awhile since i hav updated this blog. my life hav been a ride of ups n downs. So many things hav happen. n i can sae that my walk with Him isn't alright but i kept telling ppl it is. im straggling to get back to the right path but its jus so hard. I thank u those who hav prayed for me to get back to Him n i realised that its nt much of a prayer if i myself do nt help me.

I was wondering through this long journey i had with God. From the time i went to this camp called cs camp to the dae i am now, i noe i hav change for the better. i noe that God hav been there for me n guilding me through lots of trails n testing. But till todae, im still where i am. Im nt growing. I kept giving ppl advise n encouragment cos im gd at it but the truth is, i myself am straggling through it. I wan to get back to God. I wan.

Lord, come take over this life once again. I do nt wanna take control over this life n Lord i ask that You be in control over this. N i command the spirit of sianness to go away n nv to attack this body in the name of Jesus. Lord, i hav sin against u n i ask for Your forgivness. Thank You father n i pray all this in Your mighty n most precious Name Jesus, amen.

That felt good. hehehe... well, later will be going for the planet shakers concert n i noe its gonna be gd. Thank u tany for the tickets. Well, at first i didn't go cos was sian but jus when i woke up todae, i felt the urge to go really badly n so i ask jiahao but he do nt hav extras n so i ask tany n thank God he do hav an extra. Looking forward to it.

cya guys later. love u all. take care.

2006-07-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

hey all... jus came back from a run n nw cooling myself before going to bath. surprise to hear that i went for run? hehe. well, i think that after army, i hav been slacking alot n im getting fat dont u all agree. hehe. ya so im thinking of exercising more. but thats all words. hehe. i dont think i'll hav the discipline to do so but i'll at least try.

well, yesterdae went to church to learn drums from 1pm to 4pm. learn quite alot from my teacher eddie. after that, went to hav early dinner then came back n played the game of life (board game). after that, we home to change n headed down to church again for midnite fishing. went to bedok jetty at ard 12mn then fish n fish but to me, it was kind of boring. wanted to go back home earlier but donno y i stayed through out the nite. i didn't fish acually cos there wasn't alot of fishing rods so i tok with ppl n stuff. later ard 4, everybody went to slp at the jetty there n woke up ard 6. n wondering how come the sun hav nt rise yet. like cant see the sun n we pack up n went back. on the way back from the jetty, we finally saw the sun rise n took pics n stuff then we went to bayshore n took a cab home.

well, i guess thats all. lazy to type le. hehe. will update again soon. take care.

2006-07-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

helle all. hehehe... well, jus came back from malaysia yesterdae n it was great i mus sae. at first, i was feeling super sian cos i did nt wanna go to malaysia mainly to visit my relatives cos i wasn't close to them. i mean like how to be close to them when they r like in another country rite. hehe.

150706 sat
reach malaysia at ard 5 then went to one of my uncle work place n there was some of my relatives. chit chat abit then went to hav dinner at some out door hawker center. lots of food there n i would rather go there to eat then in resturant. cheep n nice. hehe then headed to auntie hse n thats where i stay. put down my stuff n had a gd bath. nt long later, 3 of my cousin came together with my auntie n uncle. tok abit then the youth went clubbing n the oldies went to some hotel to chit chat. hehe. the clubs there r gd man. i can sae that the clubs there r better then MS. We went to a posh club called "passion" n its for 21 yrs n above but who cares. hehe. jus pretent to be matured n went in. hehe. then my cousin bf came with his fren n we party. drank quite alot n was almost high but gd thing i noe my limit n i stop drinking. party through out the nite but it ended at 3am. thats the bad thing abt malaysia club is that they end too soon. at least some singapore clubs end at 6am. after clubbing, cousin drive us back n thats for the first dae in malaysia.

160706 sun
Woke up early then went for breakfast at a resturant. had tim sum yum yum with some of my cousin n uncles n aunties. then after that went to shop shop ard at this place cos mid valley. this shopping center is huge man. heard that u shop there for 2 daes oso nt enough. well, i bought a soccer boots there. hehe.after shoping, went to this photo taking place for a family photo taking session. hehe. all my relatives were there n so many hav change. hav nt come back for more then 10 yrs n when i saw them, they look so diff. n i really gt to catch up with them. it was fun. n i realised that i hav 42 relatives there. so many man. but it was fun to hav all of them there. after taking photos, went to hav seafood dinner. nice food. after that went with 3 of my cousin to play cyber. then back to home. well, while slping, the bed broke. hehe. was scary man. dont wanna sae in details here. ask me if u wanna noe. ehehe. lazy lah.

170706 mon
woke up, went for lunch, then headed back to singapore. thinking of it, at first i didn't wanna go over but in the end, i kind of misses it lot. getting to meet my cousin again. catching up so many of them that i hav nt seen in ages. so many of us change. thats gd...

well, went out with abi todae... had quite alot of fun. hehe. tok n chit chat. thx alot man.

2006-07-11T02:46:00.000+08:00

Argh..... I really feel like giving up oready. Someone save me.

Lord, the feeling i am having nw is jus bringing me down n i ask God that You will take that feeling away. That feeling is jus killing me n im trying so hard to fight it n keep it away from ppl but Lord to this very hr, i ask that You take it away n You come n take over this. You've seen my hurt in this situation n i noe that You r there beside me when this happen. N i realised through all this that You hav taught me alot. Lord, frenship to me is very important but i'm nt gonna put friendship first anymore n i ask that You be first in my life. Amen

todae, went cycling with Jasmine tan n barney. it was fun. n while cycling, i was reminded of my past. this things that hav happen to me n some other ppl. the probs with frenships. n i was tearing abit when i was reminded abt it n i jus do nt noe wat to do. i was wondering how come frenships can ended up like this. From being close fren to becoming below jus fren. N it did nt happen as time pass but it happen over nite. n i was wondering, it is my fault that all this hav happen. What did i do wrong that this has happen? i started to hav lots of qus abt this. i thought that i knew so much abt being a gd fren but thinking back, i realised that i wasn't gd enough to many ppl. i keep making ppl sad. But, sometimes i jus blame myself for the things i did but i do nt noe wat i did wrong n they wouldn't tell me. n i wonder again. is it me or r they jus having moodswing. well, i jus hope that in future, things will get better. n im still learning to be a gd fren to everyone.

N if ever u all do nt like wat i did or sae or watever, pls pls tell me. Cos i wanna noe my wrong n i wanna learn from it. thank u.

2006-07-03T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... i'll be leaving to Hongkong in afew hrs time n will be back on th 7th of july. Finally i can go on a holidae after that 2 yrs in army. Anyway, if there is anything, jus leave me an sms k? Todae is youth day n although its gt nth to do with me, i still hope that all u youth out there enjoy this day man. make this day a really meaningful day. Go out there n enjoy. but something tell me that alot of u will be studying. Take a break man. nt saeing dont study but jus take a dae break from all that study n working n mugging. Go out n hav fun with ur frens n family. Go out with God n spend that quality time with Him. Go for it man. Aft that, it will be back to study. O's r coming for alot of u. So all the best to u guys.

I truely enjoy all the times i had with each n everyone of u that i called fren. without u, life wont be the same. Friendship is a gift from God n i thank God for that wonderful gift.

kk. will stop here. take care all. ciao.

2006-06-25T01:27:00.000+08:00

Finally its coming to the end of the 2 yrs i hav been waiting for. Im getting back my pink ic this coming mon n i jus cant wait for that dae. ohh man... i really forgotten how that rectangular pink card looks like oready. will i recognise it? hehe.

Soon after army, it will back to studying. Its been ages n im kind of afraid of wats to come. will i be how i was before? the dont care attitute? i hope nt. i guess, i shouldn't be afraid abt that cos i noe that God is there. n im gonna do my best. And frens, if ever u see me having that stinky attitute of mine, would u kindly jus give me a kick n remind me to be gd. hehe. but pls dont kick so hard. keke.

Im having some probs at home n im kind of sad of wats to come. Abt my dad n his job. i jus donno wat to do. im like helpless in this kind of things but jus pray.
I noe... dont think so much le lah.......... God, come n take control right nw.

2006-05-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

I hav watch the movie "Da vinci code". While watching it, many question came into my mind. but i was beliving in God n while watching the movie, i was praying so much to ask God to quard my heart. So if u r planning to watch that show, remember one thing. its only a show. if u read that book, its only a novel.

After watching that show, one common question was asked. The question is, "Is Jesus n mary Magdalene really married?".
In that show or in the book, they sae that Jesus n Mary Magdalene was married. All this was said through a picture drawn by Leonardo Da Vinci himself. He drew a picture of the "Last supper".
In the first place, this picture is drawn by a man called Leonardo Da vinci. He wasn't there during Jesus time so the picture might not be how it looks like during that time.
Secondly, Mary Magdalene isn't at the last supper. It is said, "When it was evening, Jesus sat down at the table with the twelve disciple." (Matthew 26:20)
The twelve disciple is:
Simon (also caleed Peter)
Andrew (Peter's brother)
James (son of Zebedee)
Philip
Bartholomew
Thomas
Matthew (the tax collector)
James (son of Alphaeus)
Thaddaeus
Simon (the Zealot)
Judas Iscariot

So there u see, there is no Mary Magdalene in the last supper.

I hope that this will help some of u all who hav question abt this. take care.

2006-05-17T13:21:00.000+08:00

To some of my friends that hav been going truth some probs.

I've seen so much that hav happen to all of us. Things that is happening that we do nt wanna face. Things that we wanna hide away from. Truth that we do nt wanna belive. Let me tell u. All this r the lies of the devil. The devil works. Who wants to let the devil win? certernly nt me. Do you? Im sure nt. So y do we hav to let ourselves be put to this kind of things?

Trails n Obsticles... Y r they in our lives at the first place? Let me tell you. God is the one who put this trails n obsticles into our lives. Nt to torture us or do any bad to us but because God belive in us that we would go through this trails n pass it. N even when u pass, these trails will nt stop. It is when bigger trails will be put into ur life. God belives in you. N through all this, thats when we grow n see God even more. Through all this, thats when we seek more of Him.
So hav you wonder wat would be life without all this trails n obsticles? It would be a life without meaning. A life that is so boring. So sometimes, during our gd times, where u felt like life is boring, pray n ask God for testings n trails. Thats when the excitement began. Thats when we learn even more n thats when we lean on Him.

Is there anything to be worried abt in life? i tell u something, No. God is of cos the one that we desire most n the one the we put the first. So y mus we be worried abt cos we noe that God wont leave us at all. Thats for sure.

I Love you my frens n i pray that we will walk through all this nt on our own strength but together with God. He wans to walk with us. So open the doors in ur life n welcome Him in.

Take care. =)

2006-05-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

Im all home alone. my sis in aus studying n mu mum in korea with her frens. so cool. hehe. nw that i hav make my choice in wat to do aft army, i hav no more worries. shall jus leave it all to Him. there is nth to be afraid abt. no the smallest thing n nt even the biggest thing.
What is bigger then Him? nth. i shall put all my trust in Him n nv let go of that. In Him, i will raise. Raise up to me a man of God.

Ohh man... my ankle still hurts alot man. maybe because i did nt take gd care of it. been walking alot like going shopping n stuff n though it hurts, i try to tahan. hehe. nw my ankle hav some bruses. n its still lumpy. Jus gt myself an ankle guard n hope it helps abit.

Later, going to church to play drums while ben wu will be playing base. then after that, will be going for cell. Its at parkmall todae n umm.... donno wat Gods plan for cell todae. hehe. excited n curious.

Well, yesterdae was thinking alot of my past. from young till nw, its been quite a journey. Going through all those ups n downs in life. having to go through those upsetting times. haha... wat a ride i hav been through. But thank God that He hav brought me closer to Him. Thinking abt all my past, the wrong things i did. really make me regret on alot but God hav oready taken the bad things i did before away. Thank You God.

Title: Give thanks
Chorus:
Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given
Jesus Christ, His Son

Chorus:
Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks unto the Holy One
Give thanks because He's given
Jesus Christ, His Son

Verse:
And now let the weak say "I am strong"
Let the poor say "I am rich"
Because of what the Lord has done for us

Verse:
And now let the weak say "I am strong"
Let the poor say "I am rich"
Because of what the Lord has done for us

Give Thanks

O Lord, I thank You for giving me a place to paise You n glorify You. I thank You for giving me the chance to have known You n see You. I thank You for picking my up when i fall. Lord, would You come n show me even more? Would You teach me to Love the people around me the way You love them. Your Love endures forever. Teach me to follow the way, to learn from the truth n to see the light. I thank You for every single thing that have happen in my life. I pray all this in Jesus precious name. Amen.

2006-05-03T19:20:00.000+08:00

AHHHH!!! its getting nearer n nearer. im gonna be out of army soon. it seem like a short time but its 2 yrs. Abt 2 more months n im done with it. Really cant wait for that dae to come. well, hav been packing my stuff in camp. packing all the things that i need to bring back home. But as i was packing, i jus felt the sadness. of cos im happy to leave army n go study again but when i was packing, i jus felt sad to leave that place. The place i hav been in for 2 yrs. The bed that i slept on for abt 2 yrs. The walk from my main gate to my company line. ohh man... hav nt even left that place n i've somehow missing it. most important, my frens who was with me for that 2 yrs. i'll nv forget them. Nv forget the things we did together through this 2 yrs. the battles we fought together. haha... thinking of it makes me laugh.

Going to study real soon n i gt to get ready for it. i noe its nt gonna be the same as before but its time to pull up my socks n get ready. Somehow, im afraid. Afraid of going to sch n play instead of studying. Afraid that i might lose my forcus in studying. But there is one thing for sure is that i hav frens to help me along n nt forgetting i hav a BIG BIG God.

Gonna update on my walk with HIM... =)
i hav been backsliding for awhile n i jus felt so alone. Felt like God isn't that. Felt like i hav no one to turn to. But all that was in the past. Afew weeks ago, i gt to noe a fren. This fren that knock some sense into me n woke me up from the black world. This fren who repeatedly reminded me to do my QT. Who encourage me to do the right thing. Who help me up when i fall. This fren that God has put into my life. Nw, im jus feeling God. n i jus wanna get closer to Him. Im so desperate to hold onto Him n nv to let it go again. FAITH is wat i need.

Heavenly father, You r my fortress. You r my strength. Lord, i do nt wanna do this out of my own strength but i wanna do things with You. Lord, would u come n take over once again. Im hunger n desperate for You n i wanna hold You n see Your face. Lord, i pray n ask that You open up my ears so that i could hear You even more n i pray that You open up my eyes so that i could see u so much more clearer. Take from me my life n use it for Your glory. Thank You Lord. Amen.

Artist: Third Day Title: Take My Life

Chorus:
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You Jesus

Verse 1:
How many times have I turned away
The number is the same as the sand on the shore
But every time You've taken me back
And now I pray You do it once more.

Chorus:
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You Jesus

Verse 2:
How many times have I turned away
The number is the same as the stars in the sky
But every time You've taken me back
And now I pray You do it tonight.

Chorus:
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You Jesus.

2006-05-01T18:38:00.000+08:00

Its been quite awhile since i last updated. Its the month of May. Abt a month time, n im out of army. Cant wait for that dae to come where i can finally see my pink ic. i wonder how that card looks like. totally forgotten how it is. hehe.
Well, yesterdae i had a great time. in the morning, went to wendy church n realised that the service there is somehow abit similar as ky. after service, went to hav lunch then headed down to ky for yc. both service was great. both speaker is gd n funny. hehe. after yc service, went to meet may in kpt then headed back to church for capts ball. umm... but capts ball todae abit sad lah. hehe. cos like i only play half a game n i sprain my ankle pretty bad. then hav to put ice on it then i went to sgh with wendy. the doctor ah... abit gay ah. gt attitute oso. haiz... nvm. then after that went home n wentdy gt to fu wo back home. hehe. thx.

This wk, im going through a test. A test of my frenship n a test with God.
"Im sure both of us can do it with God"

Dont really hav to mood to sae anything le. donno wat to sae so i guess it ends here until next time. ciao.

2006-04-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

okkk.RAHHHH here goes.
my day was ohhh kayyy.and i went to my best enemy's church with may.i think it was quite nice there.got cafe and pool table lol.hmmm.and then we had dinner at long john silver.i got attituded by the gal cashier.sian diaooo.but i was guai and didnt say anithing hehehe.
then i took 853 and go home.then i had kopi with my frens.it was fun.i didnt want to go home so early but thanks to my own golden mouth.i went off early.then when i went home.i heard a nice song.but reminded me of my fren tt had passed away.but i know tt friend has always been a part of me.and God will take away the past and let it motivate me to live this life better for my fren tt nvr got to enjoy his life.and i will live this life more fulfilling with God's words in me.

-this is typed by a friend because the owner was too lazy to type.-

2006-04-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae, went to play badminton at mdis uni campus. super tired. after that, went to bath then hang out ard the campus for awhile than head down to cityhall. went to funan center to look at stuff n i walk pass this "Apple" shop n suddenly remember that someone ask me y i nv take care of my ipod. so i went into the apple shop n bought myself a cover protection for my ipod. after everything, we went to cityhall to meet the rest of the ppl. those ppl who r going to surprise andy cos its his bdae todae. many ppl were late but its gd. went ard looking for cake n a card. bought a card n all of us wrote something in it. hope u like it andy. than we walk to marina square kpt n there he was having dinner with jiahao. jiahao was there storing time for us so that we could surprise him. we slowly went behind andy, light up the cake n "SURPRISE!!!" haha. than after that we had our dinner for those who hav nt eaten.
WOW... i ate so much yesterdae. before badminton, i ate mix rice. then after badminton, had chicken cutlet but wasn't full after that so bought 2 sandwhiches. then aft surprising andy, had spagetti n claypot rice cos bianca couldn't finish it. i felt so pig yesterdae. ehehe.

Hey best enemy... im sori to ps u last min cos of the bdae thing. i hope that u r nt angry.

well, yesterdae i had a tok with grand daughter. im glad we had that tok cos its been like awhile since we tok. Hope u r better. =)

Than todae, went out with mum to watch "eight below". the show is gd man. quite sad, abit funny n the story is simple but gd. love those hasky. so cute n clever. than after movie, went home n here i am nw write all abt this.

i realised one things is that i cant go out with my mum. i find it hard like both of our interest is so much diff. like todae, after movie, we donno where to go oready. than at that point when i donno where to go, i feel super sian than so i decided to go home. i really wanna spend time with her but i donno how cos the things we do is diff. than when she starts her nagging n stuff, i will feel really argh... donno how to explain that feeling.
well, i hope that in future, things will change. =)

2006-04-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

well, i've been having lots of fun recently. been going out with a new grp of ppl. kengliang, may, n of cos my best enemy wendy. its so fun man. like i've make 2 new frens, kengliang n wendy but nt only that but i got to catch up with may oso. i miss that girl man. that grand daughter of mine always so cheerful n happy but deep down i noe that she hav been going through alot.

Hey may... donno if u still come to my blog but jus wanna sae that u hav been a great blessing to me. been really encourage by the things u do n i really miss those toks that we had. although nw, new place, new enviroment, we might nt tok that much anymore, u will always be that grand daughter. always stay happy ya. Smile more.

watch "take the lead" with ben wu, krys n wendy on thurs n the show was great. did nt expect it to be like that. all i expected was a boring show abt ball room dancing. nt my kind of dance but when i watch that show, it tells me that anybody can dance. rich or poor, hip hop or ball room dancing, they all can be dance together. cool man. than aft the show, we had dinner n went for maundy thurs. wat is maundy thurs??? well, i gt no idea. hehe. when ppl ask me that, all i sae is "maundy thurs is the dae before gd fri." but i anyhow sae wan lah. hehe. than ask ard, they oso donno so uptil nw, the qus is "What is Maundy Thursday?" hehe.

Fri was gd fri n its a public holidae but i went to work ofr uncle yew teck with ben wu, lester n shawn. we went to hwa chong institute at 8.30 n work work work till abt 5.30, i gt to leave. went home, bath n went out for fishing at marina south. that dae wasn't my dae man. fish for so long n couldn't catch any so i decided to set a target of 3 fishes before i leave that place. when i caught my first, i was super happy. than later caught my second one n was even more happy. than im jus looking forward to my third fish but it nv came. then i was too tired le so no choice but to pack up n go back home. during fishing, i did one stupid thing. while throwing the bait into the sea, i release it too early n i hook my on leg. the hook when into my skin n it hurts abit. yuck. hehe.

Sat, met wendy at serangoon bus interchange. appriciate it man. than take bus to jurong interchange. super long ride but was fun. went to jurong entertainment center. we walk walk n see dvds. laugh n tok than buy "ice age 2" tix. bought 3 tickets. may, wendy n myself. the show was great man. super funny. those who hav nt watch it yet, go watch. its super funny. than after the show, follow may to eat than kengliang came. when he came, we went to ps to slack. walk ard than go trumpet praise to look at cds n books. than after that, may n kengliang gt to go. than later, force wendy to eat dinner n she did. "guai." than after that went to arcade to play abit here n there. so fun. hehe. than went home. hehe.

Todae, woke up late for service. rush to church. after service, went to had lunch at KFC. yum yum. so long nv go there le. than after that went to play lan. Swat 4 but than afew of us gt sian so we ended up playing CS. after that, went back to church than played captains ball but todae like nt that fun. than played soccer. FUN. hehe. after that, went to hav dinner in bugis than go home. haha... thats my dae.

tmr n the whole wk im on leave. shiok man. but tues n wed im working cos abit tight on $$.

i think thats all. ciao.=)

2006-04-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 7Th BIRTHDAY YC.
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2006-04-02T02:58:00.000+08:00

There r so many things happening in life. i cant really figure out wat izzit that is happening. the feelings that i hav is super irritating. i jus felt that i should be alone. i should start to depend on myself rather than depend on my frens. i noe sometime i couldn't get them to do wat i wanted n it hurts to see them turn me down but nw, i noe that life is like that. cant always expect the things that i wan to be done. so for nw, i shall learn the way to become independent. to depend more on myself than to others. ppl might sae that im anti social or a loner but i dont really care. wat can i do? im still confused.

2006-03-30T20:42:00.000+08:00

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of CoffeeWhen things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in frontof him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and emptymayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked thestudents if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas betweenthe golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. Theyagreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Ofcourse, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jarwas full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table andpoured the entire contents into the ja! r effect ively filling the emptyspace between the sand. The students laughed."Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you torecognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the importantthings--your family, your children, your health, your friends and yourfavorite passions--and if everything else was lost and only they remained,your life would still be full.The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house andyour car.The sand is everything else--the small stuff. "If you put the sand into thejar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golfballs. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on thesmall stuff you will never have room for the things that are important toyou."Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play withyour children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out todinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house andfix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that reallymatter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffeerepresented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."
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im so tired man. with all the late nite n stuff. this whole week hav nt been in camp. so shiok. sundea when to ian's place to stay over than later went to watch movie with ben n bibi. after that, went to eddie's place to stay over with lester n we play wc3 until late late ah. we take turns to slp so that means that every time, there will be ppl playing. than the next dae, still play n play but lester went back n i stayed over at eddie's place again.
than the next dae, i stayed over at ian's place n todae, i finally wanna go home n slp. hehe. 4daes of staying over..... super tired man. hehe... take care.

2006-03-21T12:28:00.000+08:00

Later gt rugby match at 3. n its raining. donno weather will the match be cancel. hope nt. had captains ball on sun with hakka. it was fun but i only gt to play for like half a match cos there were too many ppl. ohh well. than had life firing yesterdae. suppose to end in the afternoon but when i gt back to camp, it was oready like 7pm. but cant conplain because thats how army is. nv on time. ehehe.
Jus cant wait to get out of army but oso hoping that it will nt end so fast cos i hav nt decided on wat to do next. as time comes closer n closer, i became more stress. nt stress on studys or watever but stress on wat to do next. been thinking n thinking n i hav nt found the "RIVER" in my life. Wat does God wans me to do?

God, would u show me ur plans for me? Would u let me see a clearer picture of my life? Let me find my river that leads me to where u wan me to be.

Its time to let some things go. Cant always hang onto them. as time flys, it wont be the same anymore. things change n i should be happy for that. i'll be super selfish if i were to nt let it go at all.

2006-03-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Jus wanting to type some of my feelings to some of my frens.

It felt like we hav changed. We use to to hang out together n hav so much fun but nw, it seems like we r miles apart. i thought that we could be gd or even best fren but ever since u hav gone to another place, u did nt wanna tok to me. u put me one side n so i was left alone. i felt so empty inside of me. i felt like no one was there anymore. nw like u hav ur other frens, u dont wanna tok to me no more. i've been trying to call u or tok to u but i jus couldn't get through to u. or even if i did, u r nt really toking to me cos u gt distracted by other things. i wan to be close to u again. sometimes i jus wonder weather its wrong to be close to someone? cos when ever i became close to someone, that person tent to hav a distance from me... haiz... i jus donno wats all this friendship abt. so complicated.

2006-03-13T04:11:00.000+08:00

There is one thing i realised abt ppl nw a daes is that lots of ppl r changing. changing to be another person. but how come they can jus change over nite? how come ppl that i use to like to tok to or hang out with become those i cant even turn to? tried toking to so many of them but the feelings i had with them before was so much diff nw. i cant strike a conversation with them no more. i cant joke or tok to them serious anymore. nw, it jus felt like they were strangers. ppl that i do not noe at all. ppl that maybe i jus tok to once.
Maybe its because things in this world change very often. even frens change. its like, being close to u for ages but by the next dae, its like we've known each other for only afew hrs.

I jus donno wat im going through. im like so confuse with life. confuse in the things that r happening. i really donno wats going on n wats wrong. i thought that im the kind of person that would noe many things cos i observe alot but i was wrong. i thought that im the person that would noe my limits n would noe weather im doing the right thing or nt. but i was wrong. i donno wats wrong but it felt like i did nt do the right thing. n i jus wonder, wat did i nt do right? or wat did i do wrong.
sometimes i noe that many ppl get the wrong idea. n they started to look at me differently. but wat can i do?

hiya... i donno wat to sae lah but jus live life in a way that no matter wat ppl thinks, i dont care anymore.

2006-03-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

donno wats next for me in life. many qus starts to pop in my mind. ppl kept asking me. n im confuse. im lost. donno where to go. donno wat to take. donno where to walk to n donno which is the path to go. im regreting some stuff in life but i noe regretting is nt the solution. But where? Where do i go next? dae aft dae, nite aft nite, this r the qus that kept me thinking.

Soon, i'll be out of army. and where do i go next?

austalia to study? which school? wat couse?
singapore to study? Which school? wat couse?
private couses? which school? wat couse?
go for private o's?
go back to ite? which school? wat couse?
or maybe jus go n work? Where n Wat?

So many choices to chose n yet im confuse.

There is one mistake that i make in life when i was young is that i did nt put my heart in studying. nt even abit. i treated going to sch like a playground. like a place where frens meet. a place where u can play sports. a place where we students bully the teachers. i noe that many of us did the same too but after getting out of sch, i felt that i shouldn't be doing that in the past. nw, i gt to find another way out.

but well, wats done has been done. no point looking back at all the wrongs i did but instead learn from it n since i gt many other options, make it wisely.

I wanna thank all my frens who hav been really supportive in watever i did. for listening to me n for helping out. u all rox man.
wanna thank my parents oso. though i hav make life difficult for both of u, u all r still here guilding me along. n u all hav nt given up hope in me. ur the best parents anyone could hav.

2006-03-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

todae, went for lunch with bibi n later went her hse. play games n i cant belive that i played pokemon again after so many yrs. hehe. n it was fun. like going back to my childhood life. n this shows that its nt too young to do anything. while playing games at bibi hse, her fren called n ask weather she wanted to go to CCAB to play basketball n so we went. met may n the rest of their frens we headed down to CCAB. first time there n it looks like a sports sch where ppl come to hav sports n training. played basketball for awhile.

Theres a prob rite nw. the probs with ACS boys. its been so long n yet todae, my thinking of them is still the same. Since secondary school, i hated acs boys cos of one incident.

when i was in sec 2, we went to bukit timah to play street soccer. because it wasn't our area, we tried nt to make any trouble there. but things dont seem to work out between both ppl. we were there first playing soccer n soon later the acs guys came n the jus jump into the court n take our ball n kicking it ard. alot of us wanted to jus beat them up but than my leader told us nt to cos its nt our area. so we ask for our ball back but instead, they kick it out of the court into a field far away. soon later, my fren couldn't take it anymore n all of us started to fight.

haiz.... i mean like y acs boys so like that wan. come to think of it, althought i do nt like them, i realised that many of my frens r from acs. n even some of them r my gd frens. maybe they hav nt found their identity yet. todae i see them like so childish.

when i heard that this few boys todae disturbing my frens, i was really angry n i remb abt last time the fight. i really wanna go up to them n give them a punch on their face but i kept holding back. i cant do it cos wat will my frens think of me again if i really did that.

i guess nw, acs boys from church than i can mix with if nt, it will be trouble.

"Dont trouble Trouble n Trouble wont trouble You. If You trouble Trouble, Trouble will Trouble You."

i hope that in future, i will be able to accept acs boys who is ppl that i can hang out with n nt jus ppl that reminds me of my past.

CiAo.

2006-02-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

LIFE sux... u noe wat, i hate this life im having rite nw. thinking abt God gave me this life. but all i think rite nw is that this life really is meaningless. i ask myself y everytime im feeling so shit. the feeling i hated the most is this. the feeling that i cant explain. but all i noe is that this feeling sux to core. make me wanna jump of a building. make me jus wanna end this miserable life. wats the meaning of life when u dont get wat u wan in it. rite nw, i jus feel like cursing n swearing at no one.

CHURCH... wats the point of going to church when my attitute is like that. going to church nw is jus a waste of time. go church oso nv go service n end up downstairs donno doing wat. go cell oso nv learn anything. go in one ear n out the other. wats the point rite? im jus wasted time. wasting God's time n mine. somemore i dont drag myself into it but oso others who notice me. i jus wanna me drag down alone n nt others.
so ppl... jus stay far far away from me cos i dont wanna get involve in all this anymore. n i dont wan u to get involve.

even the one that is closest to me. find it so hard to tok to u. nw even on the fone.

ARGH.... i jus dont wanna sae anymore le.
I GIVE UP!!!

2006-02-01T11:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae, had a tiring dae. though i did nt do anything much, but somehow, i felt slpy n all. woke up early. meet up with some of the guys n we head down to sin ming drive where the wake was held. reach there n some of the guys r there oready. so we pay our respect to ken n we take a sit. all of us donated abit. when the time was up, the body was move into the van n was send to another place for some service. we took a bus there. all of us took a sit n waitedfor the service to over. some chunting n stuff. than later the body was send to a place where the burn the body. we were upstairs looking n so many of us cried. i was trying nt to but my tears keeps flowing down from my eyes. looking at his sis, i could see that she was really really sad. when the body was move into the fire, she was crying n crying n kept calling out to her bro "kor kor". i couldn't take it n i cried even more. when everything was over, we went out n had some refreshment. than the parents came n started to cry so much. his mum started to cry n cry even when we r on the bus going back, she was crying n she said that she didn't wanna live anymore. but her sis was there n scolded her for saeing such a thing. she still hav a daugther. i was like still crying in the bus.
i miss him oready. my fren who hav been there for me. my fren who forgive me when i did something wrong. my fren who would take the time to hang out with all of us. a fren that no one can replace.

Ken yeow... u will nv be forgotten. from the dae i noe u till nw, i thank u for all the times we had together.

acaully, i did nt wanna go for the wake cos i wanted to visit my frens but im glad i went cos if i dont, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. thank u ah sia for asking me to make a wise decision.

after that, i head down to andy's n anais place to visit them. had so much fun n i tried to cheer myself up n nt let ppl see that i was crying. hope that nobosdy notice it. i ate quite alot there than played cards. some were playing majong n xbox. i hang out ard there until ard 6. than bassie drove us to tany hse to visit. had so much fun there. eat again. tok n ppl im close with. drank wine. played pro evolution on the ps2. some went to play majong upstairs. tany abit crazy wan... the whole bottle of wine, he drank like 3/4 of it.

I thank all of u guys for everything. for being in my life. sometimes i wonder wat i would be like nw if i hav nt been to church. scary man. hehe. i guess i would hav tatoo everywhere, piercing everywhere, still be in the gangs. woah... scary. hehe.

thats all... I LOVE ALL OF YOU.

2006-01-28T09:27:00.000+08:00

wat dae i had yesterdae. in camp n i was having so much to do. parade n parade n parade. even though this parade i did nt do anything, one whole dae of this is a killer. Being an IC is really tough. i donno wat to do. getting msg n calls from my sgt n officers to ask ppl to go down can oready kill me. ppl dont listen to me n even tok back. ppl i ask to do stuff scolded me back. its jus so hard being an IC. yesterdae, i was lying on my bed putting my face down onto the pillow n was like screaming. i cant take all this pressure n stress. having probs at home n nw in camp. how am i gonna survive all this? sigh

than todae during the real parade, i recived a msg from shawn n he told me than ken has jus pass away. when i recived that msg, i was shock at it for abt 5mins n suddenly tears came out of my eyes. my close fren who i noe ever since pri4 hav left all of us. remembering the times we do together. lion dance, snecking out of class to buy food from the canteen. toking so loudly in class, bullying the teachers, play pool, billiard n lan. n so much more we did together. but nw, all ends. after the parade, i was so sad, wanting to jus cry but there were so many ppl ard. so i jus called my officer n ask for permission to book out early to see my fren n he did. i rush out of camp n went straight to the hospital. when i reach there, all my frens were there oready. his mum was crying at one corner. later on, all of us went in to see him. when i step into his ward, i saw him lying there. so pale. so white. all of us crowd ard him n many of us tried nt to cry infront of so many ppl. n afew mins later, his mum came in. once his mum called out his name, she started crying really badly. n his dad gt to bring her out of the ward to the other room. when we heard her cry, most of us started to tear. how sad is this.

i realised that many of my close ones having been leaving me. last yr, so many deaths. this yr beginning oready hav one. it makes me think even more y this is happening. than it makes me realise that life is unpredictable. u nv noe when one can jus go. u might see him/her yesterdae n nv see him/her again. life isn't as long as many ppl thinks. treassure ur love ones.

im glad that the last time i saw him was during his bdae. ever since after secondary, we went seperate paths n did nt contact each other for awhile. jus last yr, he invited afew of us over to his place for his bdae. it was a last min thing n i did nt wanna go cos i was in queensway n he stayed at serangoon. somehow, i did nt reject him n went. had so much fun there. having steamboat. we tok n tok. so many of us who hav nt catch up with one another for a long time. after that, we cut cake n stuff than we head to hougang to play pool n billiard. after that, i became hungry n i wanted to go for supper but he told me that his hse had crabs. so only 3 of us went to his hse after billiard while the rest went home. we eat n eat n eat until we r bloated. than head to his room n we tok. tok abt old times. tok abt us when we were back in sch together.
i'll tressure the toks we had during that dae. i'll tressure the time we had together.

LOVE YOU KEN YEOW...

2006-01-21T13:34:00.000+08:00

well, jus wanna apologise to all the frens that hav been there for me n guilding me all this while. joanne, may, abi, sia, queen, joette, ruth, sharon, reg, tany, jiahao, eddie, ian, shawn, ben, ah kieong, ah lau, skye, meatball, ah yue, andy, farhan, sam, audrey, nitestalker n so many other ppl. wow. realising that so many ppl in my life. so many frens to count on n depend on. im so fortunate to hav u all as my close ones. u all r like my family. even closer to me than my mom n dad n even sis.
i was thinking so much for afew daes n i realise one thing. ppl i mix with, i tent to be really close to them n i keep hanging on to them. feeling so comfortable in their pressense. but that brings me to somewhere where they r part of my life which i dont wanna let go at all.
i hav been really selfish. cant belive it. becos i felt this way, i brought everyone into this. becos of nt letting them go, i became a beast. i jus wan them to be in my life always. i jus wan them to go out with me n nt others. how selfish can i get. wake up that idea nukes.
i gess nw, its back to normal. from todae on, i gt to wake up n noe wat im doing. being selfish is nt the way. n i noe its hard but im gonna try one thing is that all of them r still my really gd frens, sisters, brothers, grand daughters, etc. but i gt to noe wat im doing. try nt to be too close to them or else it will be so hard. dont wan anything to happen the same way as wat had happen between grace n me. thank u all for everything. Yi luv u guysY.

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2006-01-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

wats wrong? wat hav happen?
This r the qus that pop in my head. i felt like dirt. i felt like crap. did i do anything wrong?

ohh man... i felt as if my close frens r no longer there. i felt as if my close frens doesn't need me anymore. i felt so alone. so lonely. like ppl ard me isn't there anymore. like... ppl who i love to hang out with or had late nite toks on the fone isn't there anymore. did they change? or am i the one who is changing? y am i feeling like this? this feeling i cant explain. the feeling of rejection. so much to think but so little to do.
frens who im close with when im in sch. frens who r in church who encourage me n tok to me. frens that i always hang out with. i felt that they r all gone. felt like they r no longer the same person i knew before. i felt like being push away. is it them??? or izzit me?

i guess nw, many of them hav other ppl to lean on. to tell their probs to. they dont need me no more. i guess nw, they hav ppl who r close to. they hav ppl that they love. they hav new frens n they forgot that i im here. felt really rejected. donno who to trust. donno who to count on. i think its time nt to depend on them anymore. i guess nw, its all by myself n with God.

im so curious to noe who will be my partner in future. so that i could truly trust her n share my every prob. but to wait for that dae, its so hard. so long. but till that dae, i donno who to depend on.

ohh well, at least i gt God to depend on, to share my probs with.

thank you lord

2006-01-12T00:09:00.001+08:00

Lord, i wanna repent n ask for Your forgiveness. I noe that i hav sin against u time after time n i keep repeating it. But Lord, u r a mercyful God n u forgive me. Lord, thank you for being there n helping me along. From this, i hav learn my mistake. Give me the streagth to do the things you told me to do n give me the heart to love the ppl ard me. Give me the wisdom to know wat im doing weather its rite or wrong. Holy Spirit, i pray that u come into my life n speak to me. nudge me when im doing wrong. You r a beautiful God. i desire you more n more. Thank you Lord. Pray all this in Jesus precious name, Amen.

Lets nt tok abt my dae in the morning. when i came home abt 30mins ago, i was super scared.
i was on mc for 7 daes but through this 7daes, i wasn't at home resting. i was in church n william fetch afew of us home in his car. on my way back, i recived abt 8 calls from my sgt but i did nt pick up the call cos i suspect that there is something wrong. than my mummsg me n ask me to call her back urgent. so at that point of time, i oready knew that my sgt hav called my mum oready. i quickly called back my mum n she told me that my sgt called her. i was so scared at that point of time but i was closed to home oready so i rush back home n tok to my mum abt it. later on, i decided to call my sgt n give some excuse abt nt being at home. he told me to go back camp tml to endose my mc n go back to my company n find him. umm... i hope that it will be fine.
well, lets jus see wat tml brings me to. all i could do nw is watch n see. nth else to do le. gt to pray. ciao.

after awhile

2005-12-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

ohh man... so many things hav been happening this month. gd n bad. but i guess, i shouldn't sae everything cos i think i forgot alot of things le.

well, this month it hav been great. with camps n stuff that help me grow in my walk with my father. i went for alpha camp which is at bpmc. did nt go for the whole camp cos i gt my own army camp but manage to go for at least 2daes 1 nite. it was really a new experience to go to another church camp. thx may for inviting me to that camp. umm... during that camp, i felt that its so much diff from ky. the worship is diff n the teaching is diff oso. but im glad that i gt to go n see so much of God's work in other churches n see how the ppl grow there. n i make afew frens there. but regret that i was too quite in that camp. it was quite challenging for me cos that church specks lots of chinese which i gt prob with it. but than i thank so many ppl that help me through. thx u guys.

TEENS CAMP... umm... its only a stay over camp but though its so short, its been great oready. we had so much fun. like wat teens do n our leaders like jh, reg n eddie. they r a cool bunch of ppl. they might be adults but deep down, they r like teens. their hearts r so warm n cheerful. love them man.

suppose to go for a dae of ycite camp but in the end, went for all 4 daes 3 nites. hehe. ycite camp is great man. getting to be with my frens again. doing so many fun stuff... playing church games. wow... i miss it so much. but, there is one things that make me really sad through this whole camp. on the first dae of camp, i gt a msg from my fren shawn. he ask me if i noe abt ken prob n i told him i dont. n he ask me to go to sgh to see him. i quickly call him n ask wat happen n told me that ken is in coma. at first i dont belive him so i called another fren to ask n he sae the same thing. the next dae, i went down to the hospital n saw ken lying on the bed. in coma. i was so sad when i saw him. after seeing him, i went back for ycite camp n felt so sad. i guess ppl noticed me n started asking wat happen n so i tell them. well, for me, this camp hav been something. learning so much from God n in the same time having this prob. but God hav gave me the heart to belived in him. so thats wat im doing. camp was great. went to a day care center n played with the kids there. at first, i do nt noe how to react to them but after awhile, they r so much fun to be with. how i wish i could hav a younger sibling. i wan to hav a younger sister since young. i had so much fun there man.

well, nw that all this camps is over for the yr, its back to our daily lifes. but i guess, this time it wont be the same. since we hav grow so much n learn so much, we r gonna use wat we learn into our daily lifes. tml some of us will be going to the hospital to pray for ken.

tml is christmas le... thats so fast that one yr hav past. thank you God. everybody... i wanna wish u guys a merry christmas.
n i wanna wish Jesus a happy bdae.

2005-11-09T14:21:00.000+08:00

aha. here i am again, updating for lionel.

just recieved a msg from him...all the way from australia. haha

its been a week since he's been gone

keep praying for him yea. especially tomorrow, because there's going to be a BIG test. pray that he'll pull through it and God will continue to be with him and that God would give him extra grace and strength to go through.

-abi-

2005-11-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

lionel's leaving for australia already. for training. will be back on the 25th nov. keep him in prayer yea.

his com is down, so here i am, updating for him.

he went sentosa today with some of the church people. and he's burnt. ahaha(: heh.

we went iceskating on sat. though it was short, but was fun.

he said the training there will be super tough and tiring and don't know it he can hold on. somemore its in a foreign land. yea, so must remember him in prayer yea.

jia you lionel! (:

-abi-

2005-09-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

todae had a really tiring dae from soccer. well, had off form camp. first thing i did todae was went to camp for this ans qus thingie called CRMQ. than after that bk out. went home than ard 2+, left my house n meet eddie n fren from tao payoh church for lunch in pasta mania at juntion 8. ate until really full. couldn't finish my fd but thank gdness edward was there to help. after that, we wanted to do something but donno wat to do so we walk ard. wanted to watch a movie but than the timing isn't gd cos ard 7, we had soccer. realised that J8 has nothin to do, we decided to go toa payoh. we there n played lan. warcraft 3. after awhile, eddie n i took a cab to bishan. but than we were too early so we went to pravin house to hang out. at ard 7, went down to play soccer. played until 10pm. but than had so many injuries. had 2 injuries on my right leg n nw im sort of limping. kk... not really alot of injuries lah. hehe. i guess tml i gt to go n see the doc. hope nth is wrong with it. thats all for my dae. ciao.

A month of sianness

2005-09-09T12:24:00.001+08:00

Well, practically this month of sep is quite sad. nt as in that kind of sad but as in my weekends r burn.

Weekend 1
I was in mount faber. dont get the wrong idea i go there to drink n club ah. hehe... i went there together with my army ppl to this place called safra mount faber to give up some AHM (army half marathon) number tags to those who r running. we there for like 3 daes man. 3 daes might sound short but than time passes really slow there. on the first dae, it was open for the army ppl so only army ppl came. i tried to siam all the tough jobs like counting n stuff cos my maths cannot make it n i succeeded. but ended up in a really boring job n theres to jus seperated safety pins in grps of 4. theres the most boring thing anyone would do. n cos i was so bored, i decided to do more things n theres to sit there n wait for ppl to change their shirt sizes if it doesn't fit them. but still, its boring. this goes n for the whole dae. than later go back camp n had nites out n bk in again.
Day 2 n day 3 was almost the same. it was open to the public n many ppl came. so many ppl came that we were to busy to even eat lunch. but than as for me, still the usual. boring n i had like many lunch. hehe. i did this for the whole of the 3 daes... how boring can i get man. ehehe.

Weekend 2
this coming sat n sun, i'll be doing guard duty. its a 48hrs duty n i hav nv in my whole army life did a 48hrs guard duty before. this is crazy man. i was suppose to be involve in the AHM run this sun but than last min they sae they needed ppl to do guard duty on sat n sun so than they did not need me no more. so todae its fri n they let me rest but tonite gt to go back in again.

Weekend 3
im in out field. stupid rite? so many weekends burn n gt no rest n than they give us some out field in tekong. that burn my weekends. super piss with wat they r doing man. suppose to hav off before the out field but than they cancelled it. i've like given up hope oready lah. haiz... donno lah... will jus see how it goes.

A month of sianness

2005-09-09T12:24:00.000+08:00

Footprints

2005-08-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

This is my favourite....

Imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking down the road together. For much of the way, the Lord's footprints go along steadily, consistently, rarely varying the pace. But your footprints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops, turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns.

For much of the way, it seems to go like this, but gradually your footprints come more in line with the Lord's, soon paralleling His consistently. You and Jesus are walking as true frens!

This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens: Your footprints that once etched the sand next to Jesus' are now walking precisely in His steps. Inside His larger footprints are your smaller ones, You and Jesus are becoming one.

This goes on for many miles, but gradually you notice another change. The footprints inside the larger footprints seem to grow larger.

Eventually they disappear altogether. There is only one set of footprints they have become one.

This goes on for a long time, but suddenly the second set of footprints is back. This time it seems even worse! Zigzags all over the place. Stops. Starts. Gashes in the sand. A variable mess of prints.

You are amazed and shocked. Your dream ends. Now you pray:

"Lord, I understand the first scene, with zigzags n fits. I was a new christian; I was just learning. But you walked on through the storm helped me learn to walk with You."

"That is correct."

"And when the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually learning to walk in Your steps, following You very closely."

"Very good.. You have understood everything so far"

"When the smaller footprints grew and filled in Yours, I suppose that I was becoming like You in every way."

"Precisely."

"So, Lord, was there a regression or something? The footprints separated, and this time it was worse than at first."

There is a pause as the Lord answers, with a smile in His voice.

"You didn't know? It was then that we danced!"
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This week wasn't that bad. i get to sit on the helicopter. well, this helicopter that i sat is called the Super Puma. It was quite fun sitting in the helicopter man. how rare can a person sit on it. hehe. well, its like so late le. i think me gonna go slp le. bye.

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2005-08-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

well, todae is the last dae of the carnival at marina south. no more weekends burn but some how, im gonna miss it man. somehow, i dont wan it to end. maybe because of the free time i get when im there like going to the arcade, eating n drinking. hanging ard marina south n walking ard to see stuff. thats fun lah. but now since its over, its back to camp life again. sian. back to training, back to the boring life. the worse thing that is coming is that im gonna hav out field this coming tuesdae. hate it alot.

sometimes i wonder how come my life is so full of things that i donno how to explain. i mean like so many things happen in my life. from how i was before until the dae i noe who God is until wat i am todae. hav been thinking alot lately abt my past. from who i was before n now im like this. i jus dont noe how come im thinking like this. haiz...

i jus wanna take this chance to thank my frens who hav helped me through so many things. church ppl who hav bless me with so many things n with all those encouragement. i really appreciate it.

well, i dont feel like saeing anymore. i'll end here. bye.

wat life can be.

2005-08-06T15:37:00.000+08:00

well, hav not updated this blog for awhile. partly because i do not hav time to update it due to the ndp n the carnival in marina south. n it haven even finish yet. im quite sick n tired of going to maina south le. perform for everyone to see but no one was there. its like weekends r burn. time r wasted. wats the point man. having so much probs lately.

Wat to do??? y hav all this happen? i hav told very little ppl abt this but this is getting too far. well, i hav this really good fren who i treated him like a brother to me. but one dae, he did something bad n was thrown into jail. dont really remember how long was that. went to visit him one dae n he told me to do something for him. he ask me to take care of his younger sister n so i promise him that. so now, his sister i like a sister to me. after having to go into army, i wont hav enough time for that girl so i ask me other gd fren to take care of her. not long ago, i recived a fone call n it was from that girl. n wat i heard from her really piss me off. she told me that she was rape. n rape by who? she was rape by that so call "gd fren" of mine. now the prob is this. how am i gonna tell my brother wat happen to his sis? how am i gonna explain it to him? its partly my fault that this happen cos im the one who ask the "gd fren" to take care of her. i donno man.

still got so many probs in me that i dont wanna sae. argh... wats happening to me. how i wish i could jus go somewhere far away on my own n nv come back again. i donno.

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2005-07-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

wat a wk man. went for a ndp practice. it was not as bad as i thought it would be. in fact, i like it. hehe. though next month, my weekedns will be burn due to the performance but i think its worth it cos in the end, i'll get 8 daes off. hehe. well, yesterdae which is sat, i had guard duty cos of extra. this extra wasn't really my fault at all. this is wat happen.

well, we were all getting ready to go to the vehical sheak to do some stuff. i do not hav enough hands so my sergent help me to carry my weapon there. he left it with another sergent. when i saw the weapon with another sergent, i went off but who noes that he went to do other things n left the weapon there alone. before i noe it, i heard shouting from my officer n ask whos weapon is this n i said that its mine. than thats how i got my one extra. stupid rite?

than i did my guard duty yesterdae n bk out todae morning. straight after bk out, went to tan tock seng to report sick cos i wanna take a MC. after that, went to church for service. did not really pay attention. still feeling that stupid feeling. haiz. i seriously need help. after service, went to east coast with family n lex the dog. he hav grown so much ever since i seen him. hehe. so cute. well, thats all i guess... hope that the rest of the week will go on well. =)

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2005-07-11T15:40:00.000+08:00

i jus got home n guess who i met? a lady stop me todae n i think she is a postitute. this is wat that lady said.

Lady: Hi. (smile)

Lionel: Hello. (smile)

Lady: Can i noe ur name?

Lionel: My name is Lionel.

Lady: My name is anita.

Anita: Where do u stay?

Lionel: Hougang. (lying)

Anita:I stay there too.

Anita: Can u spend the nite with me?

Lionel: Ohhh... Im gonna meet my frens now.

Anita: icic... can we catch up with each other?

Anita: Can i hav ur no?

Lionel: I cant cos this no isn't mine. its my fren's n i cant give the no anyhow.

Than anita walk away really angry. hehehe.

haiz... to everybody. to all my frens. i jus wanna tell u all how much i love u all. but i guess, now some things hav change. jus wanna let u noe that if ever i leave, or go to somewhere far away, u all wont be forgotten. u all will always be in my heart n will always be remembered. the times we had fun together. the times we laugh n share abt our problems. thank u all so much for being there for me. i luv u all. =).

FRIENDS...

2005-07-10T15:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really feel like leaving everything. leaving my frens n family. leaving everything that i own n love n go to a place far far away. but somehow, i cant. i jus cant. y? plz tell me y? becos of frens that im still here. y r u all so close to me? i wanna run away but i cant. argh....... i feel like dying but i cant. haiz. i donno wat to do. -Give up-

troubles

2005-07-01T16:20:00.000+08:00

I sometimes really regret going into army so young. Because im the youngest, i get push ardpretty often . i get bullied. Since my first 3 months in BMT, i get push ard. What can i do but to let them push me ard. im no longer that lionel who fight back. sometimes i feel really weak. letting them push me ard n i cant do anything to stop that. i cant fight back. sometimes i feel like going back to my old self. the person who aren't scared of anything. who daes to do everything. But i noe that if i go back to my old self, than i wont be the same person anymore. to me, the lionel last time has died but will he come back to life again. but if he come back to life, than i noe that the present lionel will go. which will be better? i donno.

Haiz... what r we thinking? just because of girls, there is a fight between us. I jus wonder izzit worth it or not. After going through so much for 1 year n there is more to go, jus this small think can make all of us so unhappy with each other. i jus got nothin to sae if we acually fight over this kind of small matter n ruin our 1 year friendship together. jus remember how we met each other. from stranger to become close frens. we fight together. we laugh n joke together. like brothers to me. ppl who i will look up to. who suffer with me. who celebrate with me. in wat ever problems or situation, we seek each other for help. i really hope that this all will not jus end like that. at least not over such small matters. cos i wanna treasure the times we all had together.

SIGN OUT....!!!

JALAN KAYU DAES R BACK

2005-06-26T14:04:00.000+08:00

well, this week suppose to be a really slack week since my out field jus ended last week but from a slack week to a really tiring week. we had lots of physical training n lots of physical test like SOC n IPPT. sad to sae that my company has one of the lowest passes for SOC n IPPT.
This whole week, my OC face was like black. blacker than charcoal i can sae. i donno wat is his prob but it do not look gd at all. n than on tues or wed, there was this OC lecture n it is really a lecture. He sae that he jus came from a meeting n all they tok abt was SOC n IPPT n my company was bomb with all kind of non sense.
Come on lah... who dont wanna pass SOC n IPPT. Everybody that i noe wanna pass it so that they wont hav to take it again but they keep on saeing that we did not put in effort. thats rubbish. they jus dont understand us.
Than my OC became really angry n he sae that he is gonna take away our wellfare. no more canteen break n no more nights out from now on. but come to think of it, wat wellfare is he toking abt? we dont get nights out often. we dont get our canteen break at all n he tok abt wellfare. i agree that he let us slack in the bunk alot of times but that isn't call wellfare at all.
I cant belive that he acually stop all this so call "wellfare" when last week we did so much during out field n CO was so please abt it. Than y at the first dae did we do our best. than he sae that starting from next week, phsical training will be for everydae instead of mon, wed n fri. he is jus trying to kill us lah.
but on thurs, there was another lecture n he sae sori to us n sae that he was jus to hash to stop our "wellfare". so ohh well. but traininf will still be everydae.

well, afew new private from BMTC came over to our company. they jus pass out from recruit n now has join us. my platoon got 3 of them n they seems fun. hehe. mus remember not to bully them. hehe.
Thurs, was my 1 year in the army le. hehehehe... than at night, we had this so call bbq dinner. we ate n ate until really we were like bloated. beer was serve to us n we drink n drink. drink until full. than later we did some work n we bk out ard 10pm.

The next dae, we went to ecp for some 10km run. i run until leg pain ah. hehe... n it rain but no choice hav to run in the rain. k lah... acually, i walk like most of it n run jus abit. hehe. after that we could go off n some of us went to hav brunch. after brunch, all decided to go home but i dont feel like going home so i called jiahao if he is free. he jus woke up. so i went to parklane to play game n later jiahao called n ask me to go his house. i took a cab to this house n we tok n hav lunch. later, we went to play afew rounds of pool n durts. than after that, he went to bath n we both went out. he wanted to buy a lether shoes so we went to afew places but we met up with reg first n she brough us ard. soon later, benwu meet us n we went shopping again. n later daniel meet us n later claire n the rest.
well, we were suppose to give jasmine a surprise dinner but plan fail. before she reach tony romas, she oready realised it. hehe wasted leh... wanna see the look on her face when she got surprise but in the end cannot. we had quite alot n i drink alot of water until got to go to the loo for many many times.
after dinner we went back home n soon, i went to meet up with some of my frens. we went to jalan kayu for pratas. its been like ages since i went there with my grp of frens. we tok n tok all nite. eat n eat all nite. i think the prata ppl earn quite alot yesterdae. hehe. jus got home. im like so tired. n now im thinking where to go later. hehe... well. gtg now... bye.