Friday, July 09, 2010
Producers = Make Money
Consumers = Spend Money
Prosumers = Make Money while they Spend
2:00 PM
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Thought that this is a place to share stuff but what did i get after telling them stuff? They call me a quitter. Thinking that this is a place where brothers n sister can share things n wont be look down on.
Yes, i always tell myself that i dont wanna care what people think of me. or even say about me. But somehow, there is something which will strike me once i hear all this comment.
I believe that there is this God. I believe in what He says. But i dont believe in the body. Sometimes they hurt.
How to share when they do this?
Even when the leaders are like that.
NOW its only God n me.
11:47 PM
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Hello...
Wow... So long never blog already and why am i here? haha. Today is the 9th of Dec 2009. Came back from cambodia not too long ago and the feeling that i am having now is bad... I wonder why am i feeling this way. Each time i come back from cambodia, the feeling is like that. Didn't want to come back. Didn't want to leave my friends. Didn't want to say Good Bye.
This trip has been rather different from my previous one. Maybe its just a different kind of leading. Different calling. Different people in the team. Different Leaders.
I admit that through this trip, it wasn't easy for me at all. Many things i disagree about. Many mountains to climb. Many giants to Fight. But i am glad that i actually went for this trip. Not only to meet up with friends that i have not seen for awhile but also to know this new relationship with the people i went with. To know them better although i see them every week in church. To see what kind of people they are and to accept them for who they are.
Coming back to singapore was tough. Leaving friends behind and not knowing when you are going to see them again.
Indeed, i miss them alot. The bond that we had. The closness we had. The fun we went through.
Each time i start thinking of them, tears start coming out. Feelings come n take control.
Its really tough. You never know will you ever see them again or not.
This is the second time i am there. Was looking out for those that i seen before but some isn't there anymore. Its sad to hear some of their stories. One is in hospital cos of HIV. many was taken back to their parents. I mean going back to the parents or family is a happy thing but i was wondering what are they doing now?
I start thinking weather is it better to be in the home or is it better to go back to the family.
Right now, i am praying that God will bring me back to Cambodia again.
4:07 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
its been a good time hanging out with friends this past few weeks. spending alot as well but it was all good. starting work really soon. and im looking forward to it but in a way oso sad. sad because i know i wont have so much time to hang out anymore. lesser time to go to church. lesser time for frens.
lesser time for relationship. something that im afraid of is my walk with God will be affected when i wont be able to go to church. but deep down,i know God as put me in this place and im sure he will provide me and guild me. ohh well. :) thats all.
10:48 PM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
sad to say!!! DISAPPOINTED
Im disappointed in the leadership of many people.
They have lost my respect.
They take friends for granted.
You call yourselves Christians?
You call yourselves a Church?
You call yourselves an image of who God is?
Then what would non-believers think of God when they see us?
Are we different from those who do not know God?]
What is the difference?
If non-belivers see who God is through the things we do, then they must have know that this is a lousy God.
Right now, im sure that many non-belivers behave better then we christians behave.
They dont take friends for granted.
And I respect them for that.
Unbelivable
4:44 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Back again
Well, i have not been around here for awhile. Now at home not doing anything and decided to maybe update abit.
Its been quite a journey for me this past few years. Going into shatec and after 2 yrs graduated. But after that, what do i do? Its been a struggle deciding my future on my own. Not letting God take control. ok here is how it actually happen....
After gradutaing from Shatec, i was worried of what im going to do after that, Cos this will be what i'll be doing in a long term. hopefully till i retire. So was having my long break after graduating but soon, i was introduce to this vietnamese resturant to work in. so i agreed to go for the interview. Waiting for the days of my interview, alot of things went through my mind. Things like, i have not had enough break yet. Do i want to work in a vietnamese resturant? and stuff like that. Afew days had past and the date of the interview came, i went for the interview and everything went smoothly. I was asked to go back again to do some paper works before i start work. And they will call me to tell me when i have to go back. During the time before going back, questions start appearing in my head again but this time i told myself that i dont mind doing it at all and my head was at ease.
Nearing to the date of going back, i recived a call from my dad. He asked me if i would like to take over his business which he had started but wanted to stop. After hearing from him, i was so excited over it but also dont know if i should take it. Cos running a business isn't easy at all and i just graduted and not knowing much about business at all. So i told him that to let me think about it first. and he did.
So i was running out time for my big decision. During that period i was really struglling. I was still waiting for the call to tell me when i should go back but i know it was near. One day, i met up with my mentor to talk about this over lunch n coffee. She told me so many things which kept me thinking. And letting me realise that i have forgotten that i have a God who is just waiting for me to ask.
During that talk with my mentor, i recived a phone call and to my disbelief, its from the vietnamese resturant asking me to go back in afews days time. After getting that call, i became to panic and became desperate for an answer. For a decision that i need to make soon. I went back home, and i went on my knees crying out to God that i needed His help. That i cant do it on my own anymore cos i really just cant. I am weak without Him. Decided to leave it all to Him and i felt much better after that.
Just one day before going back to the resturant, i was praying and God told me not to take up the resturant. but after hearing it, i was happy that now i know what to do but also afraid cos how am i going to tell them that i wont be going anymore in just a short time. And it was about 12 plus in the night and the only time i can call them is on the day itself. But knowing that i have to do it, i leave it to God for strength. The next day, woke up early in the morning and took my phone out.sitting on the sofa in the living room, staring at the phone on the table. I took the phone and dial the no but didn't dare press the call button. So in desprate measures, i went to God again ask him to give me the peace that i need the strength to do his will and He did. after the prayer, i went up on my feet, took the phone and called the person that interviewed me. explanned to him everything that has happen and about the offer my dad had giving me n stuff. and was expecting him to give me a big scolding but he didn't. he totally understand and all he did was say "OK". I put down the phone and gave myself a big sigh of relieve and talk to myself saying, "its so easy".
Through this incident, it taught me that God can make things easy if you have faith and do what he says. And let him be in control of your life. So never ever make such decisions on your own. God is there waiting for us to asked. =)
10:46 AM
Monday, April 07, 2008
Hello... here to have alittle update.
Anyway, i came across this poem which actually encourage me years already. Ever since i was in secondary 2, this poem actually bless me alot n help me in many ways.
I Refuse To Be Discouraged
I refuse to be discouraged,
To be sad, or to cry;
I refuse to be downhearted,
and here's the reason why...
I have a God who's mighty,
Who's sovereign and supreme;
I have a God who loves me,
and I am on His team.
He is all wise and powerful,
Jesus is His name;
Though everything is changeable,
My God remains the same.
My God knows all that's happening;
Beginning to the end,
His presence is my comfort,
He is my dearest friend.
When sickness comes to weaken me,
To bring my head down low,
I call upon my mighty God;
Into His arms I go.
When circumstances threaten
to rob me from my peace;
He draws me close unto His breast,
Where all my strivings cease.
And when my heart melts within me,
and weakness takes control;
He gathers me into His arms,
He soothes my heart and soul.
The great "I AM" is with me,
My life is in His hand,
The "Son of the Lord" is my hope,
It's in His strength I stand.
I refuse to be defeated,
My eyes are on my God;
He has promised to be with me,
as through this life I trod.
I'm looking past all my circumstances,
To Heaven's throne above;
My prayers have reached
the heart of God,
I'm resting in His love.
I give God thanks in everything,
My eyes are on His face;
The battle's His, the victory is mine;
He'll help me win the race.
Hope that this poem bless those who are always being discourage and aways facing giants in their life but donno what to do.
7:00 PM
